[Melbadaze]

I told T yesterday how all weekend I felt as if I were dying, or something was dying, unyet I said as I pinched myself, here I am.

T said, is it The dying something that isn't needed now or is it important? I knew immediately it was something not needed anymore. Though I cant put more precise words to this experience, I can say its amaZing how healing happens, though I couldn't quite express the experience, I knew what T was talking about and she seemed to know exactly what I wAs talking about. Not quite sure what survIval tool I let go off over the wkend, but know one day something will come Up and I will react differently to it. The session did consist of talk about how I was raIsed with B/W thinking, having been placed in a box myself, so perhaps my own rigidity in that area is what died. It feels along those lines.

[mixedup_emotions]

Originally Posted by Melbadaze

I told T yesterday how all weekend I felt as if I were dying, or something was dying, unyet I said as I pinched myself, here I am.

T said, is it The dying something that isn't needed now or is it important? I knew immediately it was something not needed anymore. Though I cant put more precise words to this experience, I can say its amaZing how healing happens, though I couldn't quite express the experience, I knew what T was talking about and she seemed to know exactly what I wAs talking about. Not quite sure what survIval tool I let go off over the wkend, but know one day something will come Up and I will react differently to it. The session did consist of talk about how I was raIsed with B/W thinking, having been placed in a box myself, so perhaps my own rigidity in that area is what died. It feels along those lines.

Wow, it's amazing how in-tune you are with yourself....It sounds wonderful to have let go of some kind of self-protection layer....

[BlueMoon6]

Melba- I was thinking and thinking about this. I have had this feeling, but it isnt something that I could put into words either. Its as if a part of me, a part that is so familiar, even though it is a part that is in pain, it is familiar and comfortable, is no longer needed. The part I would wrap myself up in to protect myself has been lifted and I am left with more of myself. But I feel like the "wrap" has been so much a part of me that there is thei dying feeling.

I dont know if this is exactly what you mean, but that is how I relate to this. I have felt this dying thing, too.

[Sannah]

Wow, very good work and insight!!!