Don't want to go....

I have no desire to go to T tomorrow.

You get 'points' for showing up anyway.

Do you know why you have no desire to go?

reward yourself afterwards..........food or sweet beverages or ice cream

Thanks Echoes and Solarwind. Not sure why I'm in this funk about T; it's also about other things, too, I guess.

When I've not wanted to go to T, I've still gone (I have to be perfect) but then spent some of the time talking about why I didn't want to, or was reluctant to come. It was helpful for both me and T to figure out what was going on.

((((((((((((writing))))))))))))))))

Ugh, I know that feeling!

T says all I have to do is show up. And sometimes that's all I do. Once I get there, we might talk about why I didn't want to come, or we might just sit in silence, or we might keep it a light session...or sometimes it turns out to be a really good, important session (maybe that's why I didn't want to go in the first place!)

to you. Therapy is hard!

(((writing))) Yesterday, we did what Treehouse said. We also did not want to go to T. It was not easy. We made ourselves go. And for a lot of the session, we just sat there silently. It was making me mad but T told me that was what he and I needed to do right then and it was also an important part of the healing.

I have felt that oh so many times....and still do. Sometimes it's because I don't know what to talk about....perhaps avoiding the tough topics...or because I feel ashamed....or because I don't want to feel vulnerable. So many different reasons....

I hope you find the courage to go. Please post an update when you can!