[Melbadaze]

So today was the last session for 3 weeks. T said shall we review how things are? Shes never said that before. I said ok, that sounds good, and I said that I feel better than I did last week, T said, what about last yr? I said yeah I'd say the core of me is stronger but theres still all this stuff whirling around on the outside of it. T said thats a good way of describing it and she said she feels that though things are hard still she feels that when I am in one of my flashbacks that they dont feel as impossible to come out of now. I agreed with that and said I think its because I am use to them now and know from experience that I do come out of them, but its when I am in one I dont realise that I am. The rest of session was along those lines and its strange the feeling I have now I am home is that there is no rush to anything, I dont have to get caught up in worrying about the 3week break, I dont have to race to feel "cured", I just dont have to do anything but just be. Normally my head is spinning and I desperate reach out and grab one emotion and then run with it as if thats the last thing I shall ever feel. Just gonna walk steadly but surely and observe my thoughts rather than hook them.

[WePow]

This post is awesome, melba! I love what you describe. It sure will be wonderful to get to the point where you are. That is really neat. You should be very proud of yourself!