sick of therapy

I'm so sick of therapy. i'm not getting anywhere.
I miss old T so much that I want to cry.
I cant feel things the way i used to be able to either, I think i've been drugged too much.

are you still seeing t/pdoc? or are you seeing two separate ppl now?

can you get in touch with old-t to touch base? i hate to see you feeling defeated & tired .

if you think you've been drugged too much, can you talk to pdoc and see what he/she suggests? my pdoc is very good at listening to what i say about meds, because he knows only i know how they effect me. so even though the therapeutic dose is (say) 20mg for my drug, he lets me take half because it's more effective that way (less side effects).

i dont know i see her tomorrow so ill talk to her then but i dont know what she will say. I am seeing tpdoc and a short term counsellor.

if you dont think she is listening to you, and explaining her decisions in a way that you can see why she is recommending a particular course, you can always find a different pdoc?

p.s. good luck for tomorrow.

gp wont refer me to new pdoc. and to get medicare i have to b referred. plus i dont want to leave her she has helped me but just feeling a bit stuck at the moment. pdoc is so closed off she has a big brik wall in front of her as boundaries and i am not used to having therapy with such big boundaries.

you can always get a referral from a different gp, ok?
but i understand not wanting to leave if she has helped you. have you discussed the boundary thing before?

yeah she says that im trying to push the boundaries, but i just want her to act more human and talk about her a little, i dont want to know personal things because thats a breach but she is as closed as a safe and cold as an icicle.