[googley]

I was in T today and told my T that I went to an online support earlier this week when I wanted to SI to help me stay safe. But I felt really nervous telling her because I was scared that she was going to ask where exactly I went. She asked if I went to the Celiac board (no). I told her I went to one for mental health. I've never felt really worried about posting on PC before. I know I mentioned it (not PC but that i had an online support network) before (in passing). But I was worried she was going to ask me where I went. And then she would come find me. I know she wouldn't and there are multiple support networks on-line. But I felt like I had to be really cautious and not let it pop out of my mouth. I know she wont come find me, but it still made me nervous.

[rainbow8]

I can understand your fears somewhat. I mentioned online support to my new T and I don't remember if I told her the site. I think I said psych support, but not the name. I even asked her if she goes on those kind of sites and she said no. But I sure hope I'm right. I wouldn't care if my T read what I wrote about me, but I'd be embarrassed about the things I wrote about her.

Our Ts are supposed to know about us. What is the worst thing that would happen to you if your T "found you" on PC? Would it be the end of the world? What are you afraid of her finding out about you? I don't think any T would judge us for posting here. I used to wish my other T would read everything I posted so she would understand me better. But try not to worry. It's SO unlikely she would look you up, don't you think?

[googley]

Originally Posted by rainbow8

I can understand your fears somewhat. I mentioned online support to my new T and I don't remember if I told her the site. I think I said psych support, but not the name. I even asked her if she goes on those kind of sites and she said no. But I sure hope I'm right. I wouldn't care if my T read what I wrote about me, but I'd be embarrassed about the things I wrote about her.

Our Ts are supposed to know about us. What is the worst thing that would happen to you if your T "found you" on PC? Would it be the end of the world? What are you afraid of her finding out about you? I don't think any T would judge us for posting here. I used to wish my other T would read everything I posted so she would understand me better. But try not to worry. It's SO unlikely she would look you up, don't you think?

Rainbow- I know you are right that she isn't going to look me up. And I feel silly for being nervous. But sometimes the feelings don't go with the logic. And this is totally one of those times. I think part of it isn't just that she is my T, but that she knows me IRL. No one but her even knows I come here. Plus sometimes I come and rant here about her. I also sometimes write out things before I feel comfortable talking about them with her. I feel like it is something I can keep private and to myself. That I don't have to show her everything. But then there are things I would talk about on T and never post about her. So I guess part of it is that I'm not necessarily ready for her to know everything about me. I trust her. But still feel like I need to protect myself. And that means keeping some of it to myself still. Until I'm ready to talk to her about it.

But I do know it is somewhat silly to worry about her coming here and finding me.

[BlueMoon6]

Googley- I told ftt that I come here. Not specifically PC but that I come to an online support board. Soemthing from the posts or what I read comes up in sessions often. I cannot imagine that she would fnid the time to look me up anywhere.I think she has enough to go on in session. She has said she sees it as safer for me than talking to anyone about these things in person. I guess she is right, ya know? It is still somewhat anonymous even though we can get to know each other quite well.

Well, I would think that your T, tho I could be wrong about this, has other things to do and surfing the net to find which site and which one is you is a big undertaking. SHe probably has enough on her plate to spend that kind of time. That is what I tell myself when I talk about PC in therapy.

[jexa]

I told my T the specific name of this site and then regretted it! But then she is so very conscientious about everything confidentiality- and privacy-wise. She is extremely ethical and it makes me happy that I know she is that way. I emailed her to make sure anyway but she said she would never look me up here and that it would be a total invasion of my privacy. And.. I trust her. With most things, anyway.

Maybe you could just ask T? Like.. "T, I know I told you about that online site. I know this is totally paranoid but.. you wouldn't look me up or anything, right?" Do you think she could reassure you?

[googley]

I maybe could ask her. I just don't know if I would want to bring it up again unless necessary. Maybe wait until next time I have a reason to bring it up and then ask. I wouldn't want to give her ideas. And I'm almost positive this worry is unfounded. I think she had forgotten that I had even mentioned it before.