...too little time

I didn't get a chance to ask T what she will remember about me. Maybe during our last session...

The conversation today was all over the place. Disorganized. There's just too much to cover and too little time. I think I'd like everything to be tied up neatly with a bow and that's just not going to happen.

I'm so exhausted, I can barely even remember what all was said. Does anyone else ever feel like that? Just in a fog and I can't remember what we even talked about in detail. Yet, the overall feeling I got from the session was good. Maybe I just need to hold onto that?

There is some good news. T is coming to my going away party this weekend. I think that's good news, at least....Might be kind of strange, but I think I'll already be feeling a bit out of my element anyway. So maybe her being there will be grounding.

[sittingatwatersedge]

((((((((((((((((( gp))))))))))))))) yes sounds like one of my sessions - all over the place

you sound like you are feeling strong, that's very good.

[purple_fins]

Oh yes- I've had sessions like that too--- disorganized and all over the place.....

griffinp

[sugahorse1]

Yup, I can relate. It's almost like you finally get to a safe and comfortable spot and all the thoughts and emotions you've been safeguarding, are allowed to come spilling out.
My worst feelings are that I never want to leave a session like that. I just want to carry on talking, carry on feeling safe, to be understood and cared for. And I guess in reality, if there weren't any time constraints, we'd probably be able to spend hours in a session like that.

I'd try see the positive in your session - you appear to have a T that you feel comfortable with, and you've reached a stage in your therapy where you no longer need to bottle up your feelings, but instead can start working through them - WELL DONE!

[Perna]

Usually the last session, in my experience the T does try to tie things up a bit and go over what you may have learned and what you still need work on, what you have taught them, etc.

I've sent T three emails in the past 24 hours with various questions I have...she welcomes email, but usually I only just check in once a week.

I feel like I want to wring the towel out and get every last drop of her wisdom in me before I go....but fear that I'm only annoying her at this point and she'll be happy to be rid of me.

[mightaswelllive]

I think when therapy ends Ts understand and expect their clients to have lots of questions or to check in several times (especially that day). It's hard to lose T. T becomes really significant in your life and then all the sudden they're gone. It's not quite like a death because they are still there and it's not quite like a break up because or losing a friend because it's ended on good terms. They expect that it's a traumatic experience in your lives and just because they are no longer your active T, doesn't mean they won't help you through it. Sounds like she's very kind and willing - and because she's coming to your party, it sounds like she's very willing to give you the closure that you might not have gotten from your last session.

Thank you...she is very kind and willing to help me transition as smoothly as possible.

She responded to all my emails and is doing her best to reassure me that everything will work out fine. I really really want to believe her.

[WePow]

(((((((( Griffin )))))))))) Allow yourself the right to miss her. There is nothing wrong with you for doing that. And you know it will be "ok" even though it will not be "fun" if that makes sense. Big hugs!!!

[peaches100]

Griffinp,

This time of transition is stressful and probably a bit scary too! I'm sure your t knows this and wants to help you as best she can. I can totally understand your wanting to get "every last drop." I highly doubt your t minds your emails. This is an important time, and an important step, for you. I'm sure she wants to be there for you.

no words. just thanks.

[lily99]

((((((((girffin)))))))

((((((((((((griffin))))))))))))

Thinking about you