[pinksoil]

Hi everyone-- it has been quite awhile since I've been on here.

Since I came back from rehab in Feb., I have only been seeing T sporadically. I was seeing him weekly at one point, but because of finances, I had to keep skipping a week or two. The craziest part? Of course I missed him, and of course I wanted work with him-- but overall, I was fine.

I got a full-time job and I will finally have more than enough finances to see him. The only problem is that right now, T and I have no idea how to find a spot that will work for both our schedules. I had to stop seeing him until I figure out what I can do. This was only my 1st week of the new job-- orientation, so once I find out exactly what hours I will be working, I really have no idea.

I have been in group therapy with another therapist for quite some time. I see him individually now, because my insurance covers it, and he's close by. He has a very different approach than T, and I like him so much, even though I used to despise him (of course).

Sometimes I feel really guilty for doing so well without T and liking this other therapist so much. I really want to do more work with him, but I miss T and want to go back.

Here is an example of other T. We had a session yesterday and I was feeling very, very young. I wrote him an email to process this, and here is what he wrote back:

"I'm so sorry if I gave you the impression that I was upset with you. I think we should discuss this more in individual. I think that the part of you that is very small needed something from me yesterday, and I may have not attended well to her because I wanted to talk to the grown up-Self in you about "regression." Sorry. That was probably clumsy of me and moving too fast. Let's revisit it next time."

He is SO different than T. He's a recovering addict, and he self-discloses to us in group therapy (about relevant, appropriate stuff). He is very laid back, and sometimes shares his experiences with us. He is very easy to talk to.

In other news, for those who remember me-- I have almost eight months clean, I'm working the 12 steps, and my life is pretty much amazing. I love it. I have great friends, a sponsor, and a relationship with my husband that improves everyday. I deal with difficult emotions, of course, and I'm really starting to feel again. But I have great support.

I hope everyone is well.

[googley]

Pinksoil,
It is great that you popped back in and it is great to read your update. I hope that everything continues to go well for you.

[ECHOES]

In other news, for those who remember me-- I have almost eight months clean, I'm working the 12 steps, and my life is pretty much amazing. I love it. I have great friends, a sponsor, and a relationship with my husband that improves everyday. I deal with difficult emotions, of course, and I'm really starting to feel again. But I have great support.

Pinksoil I have been thinking about you recently and wondering how you are. Thank you for posting. It is really wonderful that you are doing so well! You're working hard.

8 months clean is awesome!! Congratulations! That is a LOT of One Day at a Time's and a real accomplishment

Congratulations on your new job too. I hope you and T can find a regular time to meet soon. Maybe he'll wear the cheese cube shirt to celebrate your return

((((((((((Pink)))))))))))

I've been wondering how you're going - it's so good to hear from you!

And I think it's encouraging to hear that after having such a close bond with your T, you were able to form a close bond with another T who is different from your first. I think so many of us can't imagine ever having another T than the one we do right now...it's good to read that it's possible.

Thanks for stopping by

[Kiya]

Oh Pink, this is wonderful - all of it - and congrats on the 8 months! It is really good to see you =) and great to hear that things are really going well for you FINALLY! You've worked so hard it at and deserve all the good.
Yay! Kiya