Dream

This is a bit long - sorry I'm feeling a little insecure about posting this .....

I had a dream about my T a few days ago and it was pretty intense and I woke up with my heart pounding and feeling anxious.
I had a T appt today and didn't talk about this as I was feeling embarrased that I had a dream about T. It felt like I crossed some sort of boundry by having a dream about her.

The Dream
L had a boundary violation by a male client. I read an article in the newspaper and it had her name along with the name of a guy who looked up her real name and that he published her real name (he was a client and that was the boundary violation).

Next scene I was in the car with my parents. I was going to a restaurant and it was near her office. It was at night and from my car I could see her in her office window (a really nice office that was really a small beach house just two steps from the sand). I saw two people with their backs facing me in her office and they were with her standing and I could see that she was visibly upset.

Next seen I had an apt with her and during my apt there were two elderly people that walked in and were sitting on a couch to the left of me. I couldn't look at them and was hoping they would go away. The office was beautiful and her chair along with the client chair was in a nook in the room with a big picture window, book shelves lined with books, knick knacks and a view of the ocean. While I was sitting there L was going through some stacks of paperwork and I could tell that she was distraught. I spent my time waiting by looking through flip books of tiny plant saucers and tiny pieces of printed artwork (business card size). One of the pieces of artwork was an abstract that had red lines and some yellow lines. The point of the piece was the yellow was supposed to have the same value as the red. I didn't get it but she did. I then found a few plate saucers and told her what plants I was going to use them for. She said that they weren't the right ones based on the type of plant so I picked some plant saucers that had a pretty blue glaze on them and those worked perfect with the color and type of plant I was going to use them for.

The next scene I was talking about L to one of my friends and I was talking a mile a minute. My heart was pounding as I was feeling anxious about her/L and her situation with the male client. I couldn't talk fast enough and then I woke up feeling anxious and my heart was racing.

Any thougths about what this dream is really about?

I think you clearly adore your T (everything she has is beautiful), you want to protect her from the bad guys, and when you are with her you feel like she's safe - and you hope that you will somehow come to a closer, more intimate relationship with her (lyou noticing she can be distraught too)?
And you're afterwards still worried about her, since you can't be with her al the time to protect her?

I can be totally wrong, of course, you should ask a T!

Nice dream, though!

I think you should share the dream with your T, pretend it is just a dream

But, seriously, I think it could be very helpful to you and your T to discuss its themes as they are directly relevant to why you see your T and how T can help, etc. I use to have dreams about my T quite often once I got to working on my dreams and writing them down and sharing them; they're just an "easy" way to one's unconscious and can help a lot!

Verbascum I think you are onto something when you say I adore my T
I do feel concern for her and I feel safe with her. I think I'm scared of losing her support? I feel like I never had this kind of support and understanding before.

I'm going to share this with her at my next apointment in a couple weeks.

Thank you for your insight!