[MissCharlotte]

Did you ever feel blah about therapy? This is a new feeling for me. After the recent "sorta rupture" I just feel like who cares? I am even slightly annoyed and can see myself building a case against T. I entertain thoughts that I know are not true such as he doesn't really care about me; that he just likes me because I'm a steady client who pays 2x per week; that I'm a pain in the butt when I dissociate and get all worked up and call him; I must be such an albatross of a client. What's up with this? What am I doing? Ugh. Therapy sucks this week.

[Melbadaze]

And its when we feel like this and go anyway and something happens that changes these feelings that the trust continues to grow, and once again dispondency and despair are replaced with the good "introject", then gradully we begin to find the good introject within ourself and need it less from outaude ourself, if we felt ok all of the time, there would be no way to grow and find our own inner goodness and remain dependent on outside goodness. But I know you know this misss c.

[coconut64]

(((((((((((((MC))))))))))))))))) I miss you!

I'm in exactly the same place you are, I could have written your post word by word. Just want to get out of this rut. T doesn't have a lot of clients right now. So I feel he just wants me to continue because I'm a steady client who sees him so many times per week who pays his full fee. Ugghhh!