T going out of the country

I'll have my session next week and then miss one because my T is going away. I asked her where she was going today, and she wanted to be sure I wanted to know. I know she travels a lot to exotic places. One good thing about my former T is that she hardly ever went anywhere. She doesn't like to travel.

So, the session was good but now I feel so sad. I don't know how I'm going to cope when she goes away. She's going so far away and I'm scared she won't come back. I wish I didn't care about her so much and have all of these feelings for her. Maybe some is transference because my mother left me. Well, she died, but same thing. I emailed T already about my feeling sad. It hurts more than the issues we talked about in my session today. I'm sure she won't let me email when she's away. How can I cope?

When my T went on vacation one time, I sat down and wrote her every day--sort of like a one-sided session. When she got back, she was willing to take my "journal." I don't know if she actually read it, but writing it did make me feel better, anyway.

i'm so sorry rain.i know how important your T is to you.infact i think about you and others who struggle with being able to contact you T's when i first herd this song.some parts of it are a bit off but a lot is kind of right.thought i would share it

Rainbow.... I am sorry you will be away from your T. I know that is hard. It is strange because the last time my T was away, I was glad of it in a way because I felt free :-) LOL It was like I could have all my emotions without watching them all the time. But I missed him too. And I was trying extra hard to be very well because I wanted him to be proud of me when he got back. Strange thinking on my part, but that is what happened.

Well... putting on my thinking cap here... Could you maybe do something artsy or creative that would be just one final project to show T when she gets back? Something like a collage where you make a single square each day?

Thank you! These are good ideas! The song does sound like the way I feel, granite.

I emailed T and she emailed back that she knows I'm triggered by her leaving and we will discuss it next week at my session. She says we will discuss how to calm my parts down about it. She wants me to use mindfulness and be in the present. She likes a book called Peace Is Every Step which I've read.