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I do drive in the snow to see my therapist. It's pretty unavoidable since I live in a pretty snowy area. Sorry I haven't read the rest of the thread, but do you think your therapist would be willing to do phone sessions if the snow is particularly bad?

no everyone else thinks nothing of driving in the snow. no different than any other driving. makes no sense i that i would have such an intense fear of it. when i do drive in it i have always made it safely to where i am going. shakened but safe. but now with t i dont know what ill do. it doesnt snow here everyday tho. so i think sometimes i will luck out with ok days to drive. is looking ok right now. hope it stays that way till i go.

leaving early is a good idea. will do that. told t today that im coming. hope it doesnt snow. really dont think i will go if it does. i swear i am on the brink of an anxiety attack or something when i have to drive in it.

i really like being out in the snow so will have to try and get out there more. just dont wanna be the one driving in it.

telling myself im gonna make it to appointment on wednesday. (thought it was thursday but it is actually wednesday)

(just wondering do i ever sound rude or insensitive in any of my posts. if i do i apologize for it.)

Not at all. Maybe because "bad" feelings are coming out of you you feel that you are being bad? (My definition of "bad feelings" coming out of you are from your perspective not from ours! I do not think that you or your feelings are bad but that they make you feel bad).

Tomorrow is Wednesday!! I really, really hope that you make it to your appt.........

((((((((Suzzie))))))))))

I just want to tell that I have similar anxieties about driving in the snow! I hate it!!! I used to be a lot worse, but I still worry and listen over and over to the weather report before it's going to snow. I also dread if it's going to snow on therapy day. Once I canceled and had a phone session with a former T. She was fine with that. Can you do that if the weather is terrible?

I'm scared to drive in the rain too because we once got into an accident in the rain.

When it snows, I just go slow. I think the anticipation is worse than the actual driving, but I remember being in a storm where I gripped the wheel so tightly I was a wreck when I got there. But I always made it!

If the roads are icy and dangerous, then I don't drive. If it's just "normal winter driving" for my area, then I do.

I hope I didn't make you more scared, but I wanted you to know that you're not alone with your fear of driving in the snow. We haven't gotten any yet, but I know it's coming!

I hope the weather is okay for your session.

thank you, rainbow. i dont like driving in the rain either. we have more snow coming too. but its not here yet.

Today is your appt.! Please tell us how it goes?

scared and anxious but going.

Very good! Many people feel this way when first starting therapy so you certainly are within the norm okay.

(had this in a separate post. but it may scroll off the page before anyone sees. and wouldnt know to look for it. so im pasting it in here. i shortened the other one so it wouldnt be in two places.)

my t was really ready today. had alot of questions. but i was distant and couldnt focus enough to answer most of anything she asked. my concentration was out the window today.

she talked abit about my no show. and said it was ok. then abit about the school kids. but decided it was too much for today. so she talked about the importance of having a confidant. and how it is good to share thoughts and feelings with someone you trust. she even got emotional when she was telling about this stuff.

she wants me to try sharing my thoughts abit. but im scared. she tried it in session today. but i couldnt do it. so she wants me to email her the answers.

i have a bad habit that i use in t. i tend to tell people what they want to hear so they will be happy with the answer. and keeps the conversation shorter. was doing this again today.

she also said there is a fine line between pushing too much and pushing just enough to move ahead abit. and that it is sometimes hard to tell which she is doing. i can tolerate alot and wont say when its enough. so makes it hard for her to tell.

talked about my fears of coming there. and she said the fear must be big because i come so far. and she re-assured me that i didnt need to be afraid. and that it was a safe place there to talk. i hear that but i guess i dont trust it. she said she would always be there for me. and never do anything to hurt me. i know she wouldnt. but things can happen sometimes.

i think t planned to cover alot of ground today. but t ended up doing alot of talking and i did alot of scrambled thinking. still it was a good session. i think it was ok. it just went the way i took it.

It does sound like a good session Suzzie! I am so happy that you told her that you were afraid!! Very good work! It will take time to learn to trust her. This is okay. You have to start where you are at and if where you are at is that you don't trust her then so be it. Work from there. She sounds like a good T. I am so happy that you went to your session Suzzie! When is your next appt.?

its on the 20th. so 18 more days. i go every other week roughly. it depends on our schedules and stuff too a bit.