What do you do to get out of a nasty spiral?

ACK!!! Feeling spiraly all of a sudden....

Thinking about my life...and all its pitfalls....and then imagining that T is enjoying his beautiful wife, beautiful children, gorgeous home and successful business....brings me down even more. Why do I do that to myself?

And as I'm sitting here, with my stomach filled with butterflies...my mind racing...and my heart beating a mile a minute....my ex pulls up to drop off recyclables in my recycle bin.

I feel so trapped....Blech.

I know that I need to DO something to get out of this mess....some physical activity...or get together with some friends....or move on with my dang life somehow....but I am just soooo tired.....

I hate this. Yet I bring it on myself, right? I could be doing something about it instead of wallowing in misery.....

Uck. Spirals. DOWNWARD spirals. Very, very bad. You really can't pay attention to what other people have. You'll really go out of your mind. Even if you started with no mental problems at all! No. It always has to be a question, for you and for me, of just doing better than we've done in the past. And taking pleasure in what's there for us at any moment. That's all. With plenty of time-outs for enjoyment along the way. Even if that enjoyment is a stroll in a public park, a meal at McDonald's, the sky at night, the face of your own child/niece/nephew, the taste of clean water, hot coffee in the morning, a kiss from someone you love. Can it be done? Yes, absolutely. I've seen it. I'm a believer. And I don't believe in Santa Claus. Or the Tooth Fairy or the Easter Bunny. You can do it too. And if you really want, you can stop "wallowing in misery." Yes. You can. It's been done. Join the crowd. Come with us! Take care.

yeah, i doubt your Ts life is all perfect and shiny like you imagine. you need to imagine him getting pissed off and falling in a pothole now and then.

i find that distracting myself with a movie, good book or music, playing with my dog, etc. helps. i try to do something small and doable but fun and that seems to break the spiral.

Thanks....

I've noticed that when I'm alone...not at work or with my daughter...I tend to get into these holes...I spent a LOT of time dealing with major depressive episodes over the summer, while my daughter spent much of the time at my sister's house to be with her cousins and their in-ground pool.

When I'm with my daughter, I seem to be able to snap out of it....at least temporarily....until I'm alone again.

I have friends who are wanting to spend time with me...family who wants to see me...yet I'd rather be alone right now. I am just too tired of dealing with all of life's obstacles. I am off from work this week, which is nice because I don't know how I would've mustered up the energy to get there each day this week. I spent two of those days sleeping most of the day and night.

I see T on Thursday...but I struggle with exposing my misery to him. I don't know why. He's my T. He's there to see the real me, how I'm feeling at any given time....yet, I want to hide. Blech.

You want to hide, is this from shame? If you are feeling shame about yourself I could see how you would compare yourself to someone who seems to have what you want? If I remember right you have a history of comparing yourself to others because this was what your mother did?

just lots of hugsi'm sorry

Yes, I feel ashamed for feeling so down. The judgmental part of me is beating myself up - telling myself that I should feel ashamed for being this way. ACK.

My sister is the one who does a lot of comparing...and that also stems from my parents somewhat.

Perhaps it's not so ironic that I am going through this shortly after the incident on Christmas with my mom and my cousin's baby.

Something to talk about with T....Blech.