[granite1]

i dont know what else to say i just feel horrable and i want to be able to just go sit in the safty of my T office.i should be so happy but i'm feeling so bad

[mixedup_emotions]

((((( granite )))))

I can definitely relate....

Want to share some more? Maybe venting will help?

[granite1]

i dont have a lot of words.i had a bad day i just want to SI.kind of obsessed with it wanting to feel more grounded kind of like i only have one thing .i dont know it isnt any use trying to say i'm so soooory.it's understandable if noone wants to respond or even knows what to say it's ok i dont even know what i want to say

[granite1]

Originally Posted by mixedup_emotions

((((( granite )))))

I can definitely relate....

Want to share some more? Maybe venting will help?

thanks MUE i know things are not well with you right now and still you talke the time to respond

[rainbow8]

granite: I know sometimes things just get confusing and you don't feel good. It happens to me too. I hope tomorrow is a better day! When does your son get home?

[mixedup_emotions]

I'm sorry you had a bad day, granite.

I too hate it when I obsess about unhealthy ways to cope, thinking that it would help, at least for the moment. We know it comes in waves, but trying to ride the wave when you're in it is so tough.

I used to SI when I was a teen...and then again a couple years ago when things were really, really bad....Today, all of a sudden, I got that urge again. That oh so familiar urge. UGH. I have a better idea at the moment how that links with what I'm feeling....But in your situation, I don't know, obviously.

I just try to hold onto knowing that I won't feel this way forever. It will pass, and that I will have good moments too....

[granite1]

you know it is bad when even your cats hate you

[mixedup_emotions]

Originally Posted by granite1

you know it is bad when even your cats hate you

Ironic that I just read this right after my kitten attacked my FACE. Go figure.

I wish I could reach through my computer and pull you here, granite, so we can find our way out of this mess.

[granite1]

you know sometimes it seems we get so lost in everything that it seems like we have no way out .i wish i could pull you through my pc and we could just get through this together .i'm sorry you are feeling so bad alsoi just feel so alone right now

[mixedup_emotions]

((( granite )))

Know that you are not alone in this. These holes that we fall into are awful....at times, we find ourselves lifted out...other times, we struggle, clawing our way out. I do hope tomorrow is a better day for both of us. Know that you are ok...just as I am ok. Just as we are.

[granite1]

me also MUE i hope tomorrow is a better day for both of us

[mixedup_emotions]

....I think I'm going to put together a game plan for tomorrow...some kind of activity to help ensure that I don't continue to sink....maybe you can too?