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Old Jan 22, 2011, 12:15 PM
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i am just having a bad day with everything running through my head and family stuff and work stuff and my husband seems to have had it with me and told me to talk to the people i am having problems with not him .god i wish i could e-mail my T but she hates it when i do and i will be seeing her monday not that i am intellegent enough to use the time to accually tell her anything.thats why i wish i could e-mail her.i really am hateing things these last few days and i am really trying to be ok it is just that i feel like a sting being pulled to the max things just arnt slowing down and staying thare.sorry to be posting so much i really am trying to stay in controle and not just bug out and stuff
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Old Jan 22, 2011, 12:56 PM
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Oh, granite; wish you didn't feel so bad. Hope Monday and T hurries for you and is helpful.
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Old Jan 22, 2011, 01:20 PM
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granite -

i completely understand how you are feeling about trying to stay in control - it is so hard, isnt it? ive had a bad couple of days and am trying myself to retain my composure and stay calm. sometimes i succeed, but not 24/7. if you cant email, can you write it or type it out and bring it with you?

im sorry its a bad one for you. can you do something for yourself to help you relax a little?
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Old Jan 22, 2011, 02:51 PM
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Writing things down and bringing it with you might just be the thing to help. Or type the email and print it instead of sending it. See if that works for you.
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Old Jan 22, 2011, 03:09 PM
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It's OK to post here as much you as need to, especially if it's helping you to vent, to release some heavy emotion, stay in control!
I like the thought of writing it down - if you can't send emails to T, you can sure write stuff down. That's what I did this week.....boy did I ever and it helped so much to even just get it out of my mind and written down, before I even went to see T.
If there are other people you're having problems with, maybe you could try something like writing them a note, writing down the issue and how it's affecting you - not that you'd have to give it to them, but maybe it would just help to write it down! And you could show T what you've written.
Physical activity, exercise, helps me vent emotions too, when I'm feeling frustrated, upset - I go to the gym and punch the punching bag.....do you have a safe outlet like that that might help you?
Thinking of you, granite....
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Old Jan 22, 2011, 03:26 PM
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Thinking of you. Hang on. Hugs.
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Old Jan 22, 2011, 03:48 PM
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Your not talking to your T has nothing to do with intelligence and everything to do with fear. Please post as much as you need to granite.

After I wrote in your last thread and got off line I was thinking about you and I was thinking about what you have accomplished in your life. You have a very stable life even though you have been battling like crazy the things that you have been dealing with inside. You are married to a good man, you have a job, a degree, and you raised a son. It really is amazing what you have accomplished especially considering what you went through.
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Old Jan 22, 2011, 11:17 PM
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god i just have the urge to distruct my whole life and just push every one away/i dont want anyone to have anything to do with me so i can be the way i am without anyone else getting hurt.i swear i have no controle
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Old Jan 22, 2011, 11:25 PM
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granite -

i truly understand how you are feeling tonight. i, too, am struggling.

what can you do right now to help? keep posting and reaching out might help a little?
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Old Jan 23, 2011, 12:30 AM
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(((((((granite))))))))

I don't know what to say to help you. Are you going to show your T the list you posted about what you wish therapy could be like? Doing that might really make a difference for you.
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Old Jan 23, 2011, 06:59 AM
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I don't know what to say to help you. Are you going to show your T the list you posted about what you wish therapy could be like? Doing that might really make a difference for you.
i'm going to try.unfortunately i sent her an e-mail lastnight and i dont think she is going to be realy happy about that.i shouldnt have done that.msybe she wont even bring it up because it isnt me speaking to her.at least i can panic about that instead of all the other stuff today durring work.
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Old Jan 23, 2011, 08:18 AM
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Old Jan 23, 2011, 10:06 AM
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god i just have the urge to distruct my whole life and just push every one away/i dont want anyone to have anything to do with me so i can be the way i am without anyone else getting hurt.i swear i have no controle
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Old Jan 23, 2011, 10:25 AM
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When we are little, we are the way we are and we want to be loved the way we are, and we have no control over that or over much of anything at all. It is a lonely place and kids can feel mad and frustrated and out of control when they feel lonely.

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Old Jan 23, 2011, 10:34 AM
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I agree with ECHOES.

granite, I also think maybe your "child parts" are fighting with you to come out and tell their story to your T. I know your are afraid. I would be too. I wish your T would not be angry with your emails, and that she would let you write what you need to. Then maybe you would be less afraid to tell her. Maybe I'm just projecting what's been helpful for me. I just spit out everything in emails knowing that my T won't judge me. She has said it's okay to tell her anything. Does your T reassure you in that way?
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Old Jan 23, 2011, 10:41 AM
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(((( granite )))))

I'm glad you emailed T, so she can at least get a glimpse of what you're going through.

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Old Jan 23, 2011, 05:48 PM
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I agree with ECHOES.

granite, I also think maybe your "child parts" are fighting with you to come out and tell their story to your T. I know your are afraid. I would be too. I wish your T would not be angry with your emails, and that she would let you write what you need to. Then maybe you would be less afraid to tell her. Maybe I'm just projecting what's been helpful for me. I just spit out everything in emails knowing that my T won't judge me. She has said it's okay to tell her anything. Does your T reassure you in that way?
i seem to be in a slightly better place at this moment and i dont think e- mailing T wasnt the worse thing i did.I dont know if she will be mad at me or not.if she is it is whatever.
she is always telling me i can talk to her about anything,she would be the last person to judge me.but....
when i tried to even say a small amout aboutwhat was going on with my family and work about a month ago she seemed to get all kinds of frustrated with me because i wouldnt tell them no.
IDK we will se how things go tomorrowthanks for all your suport
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Old Jan 23, 2011, 05:50 PM
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(((( granite )))))

I'm glad you emailed T, so she can at least get a glimpse of what you're going through.

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i realy dont know if she will even bring it up tomorrow.ill be ok with it if she just pretends it never happened.i'm just scared to even talk about what is going on
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Old Jan 23, 2011, 05:57 PM
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You know, even if she pretends it never happened she will have read it, and therefore have more insight into your situation. It will be okay.

About her frustration with your inability to say no to your family... that could simply be because she doesn't yet have enough insight into how things are for you. Keep trying to talk and communicate in any way you can. Keep trying. You have a lot to tell.

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Old Jan 23, 2011, 06:10 PM
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Old Jan 23, 2011, 07:52 PM
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when i tried to even say a small amout aboutwhat was going on with my family and work about a month ago she seemed to get all kinds of frustrated with me because i wouldnt tell them no.
It would be great if you could tell her in the moment how you are reacting to her frustration.
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Old Jan 24, 2011, 04:22 AM
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(((Granite))) I'm sorry things are so tough at the moment. You are keeping things together and in control - so keep it up!

Try and journal about your feelings (Even copying posts from PC and putting them into an e-mail). Then print it out and take it with you to T - it will spark conversation and make it easier for you to talk.
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Old Jan 24, 2011, 12:39 PM
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Hi granite
It's Monday, is this the day you usually see T? If so I hope it goes well for you. Just thinking of you and hoping you are OK
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Old Jan 24, 2011, 03:59 PM
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thinking of you too, granite! hugs!
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