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i don't really know that i can be open with my therapist. we never really seem to get anywhere in sessions...i am both frustrated and worried because recently i have been in crisis: she said...well, if you can think of what we can do to help, let me know.
and i said...that's why i'm here. to get help. i don't know what to do.

sigh. am i doing something wrong? i really feel quite ashamed.

i see her again monday. it's a county clinic...i don't seem to have other options, in terms of finding another provider. i have been turned down by many with the reason being that my case may be too servere for the servicesthey provide. and the suggestion is usually this county clinic.

i am being seen for a variety of mental health disorders and addiction. my mental health problem goes back 25 years, my addiction issue started around 7 years ago...i understand the two are intertwined, but i have been clean for 8 mos now ( interestingly enough after a bipolar med change i haven't used drugs ).

my therapist consistently refers to addiction.

sigh

any thoughts or rimilar expperience?

thanx, c