I;m sorry panicking again

(((granite1))) Fear is a normal response to new things and to the unknown.
It's okay to be frightened and curious at the same time; to be wary but still move toward something to learn more about it. Do you think you can do that, with T's gentle, kind, reassuring presence?

(((echos))).that sounds great.i am totaly scared to death about it but am kind of curious.i would love T to spend a session again explaining what she means but she already did spend a lot of time trying and i'm scared to ask again i would rather not do it.seems easier because i doubt it will work anyway.i have no idea how she can help me not be so scared.thanks for putting words to kind of what is going on.

all i can say is therapy in 4 1/2 hrs and i am $200 poorer with shop therapy distractions.what now?

(((( granite ))))

It's so hard to sit with the panic and the overwhelming feelings. I hope the hours pass by quickly for you.

it will be ok Sweetie. Maybe listen to some relaxing music? go for a walk? bake some cookies? clean the house? watch some tv? reply to some posts in forums? Just trying to come up with ways to help you pass the time.

(((((granite)))))

See if you can ask T to repeat what she told you last time. Ts know it's hard to remember and take in what they tell us. Remember: She is on YOUR side; she's NOT the enemy.

(((((((((((Granite)))))))))))

Or perhaps ask T to write it down for you so you don't need to continue to ask, that way if you ever question it you have it written down for you, Just an idea...