[silentandscared]

havent had a therapist for a year and is so not happy. She also just found out that l stopped all my meds 3 months ago.

She is new and l have only seen her a few times, she asked what my pnurse is doining to get me a new one and if she knew about the meds and l said yes she knew and said she would talk to you and she has done nothing to get me a new therapist. In fact l was then really horrid and told her that my pnurse makes appointments that she either doesnt keep saying she forgot or she turns up 2/3 hours late. The pnurse should have been there today as well but guess what she didnt show and the pdoc couldnt get hold of her despite leaving her many messages. It feels like l am not worth her time or effort and l just dont get what l did wrong

Now because l have moved house l will be referred to a new team, new pdoc, newpnurse, and new therapist. She has put in her referral that l need a new therapist once my surgeries are over, l should restart my meds, l should have a new pnurse and l should be reviewed by psychiatrist every 3 months as a minimum.

Now l am scared and anxious ..................l should not have told her all that about my pnurse, dont k now what l was thinking but l have held it all in for so long but now l feel like l betrayed her

[silentandscared]

Originally Posted by silentandscared

havent had a therapist for a year and is so not happy. She also just found out that l stopped all my meds 3 months ago.

She is new and l have only seen her a few times, she asked what my pnurse is doining to get me a new one and if she knew about the meds and l said yes she knew and said she would talk to you and she has done nothing to get me a new therapist. In fact l was then really horrid and told her that my pnurse makes appointments that she either doesnt keep saying she forgot or she turns up 2/3 hours late. The pnurse should have been there today as well but guess what she didnt show and the pdoc couldnt get hold of her despite leaving her many messages. It feels like l am not worth her time or effort and l just dont get what l did wrong

Now because l have moved house l will be referred to a new team, new pdoc, newpnurse, and new therapist. She has put in her referral that l need a new therapist once my surgeries are over, l should restart my meds, l should have a new pnurse and l should be reviewed by psychiatrist every 3 months as a minimum.

Now l am scared and anxious ..................l should not have told her all that about my pnurse, dont k now what l was thinking but l have held it all in for so long but now l feel like l betrayed her

sorry l posted this

[lastyearisblank]

It takes a while. You did not betray her; I think maybe she was surprised, but you have no obligation to see a psych. If you want to work together, she can give you some referrals. Don't worry silent you did ok.

[pachyderm]

I don't see that you did anything "wrong".

[PTSDlovemycats]

I agree with Pachyderm, I don't think that you did anything wrong either. I hope that things improve for you soon.

[dinosaurs]

hi silent

it might help a little to reframe "betrayal" to "self care". it sounds like the pnurse was not taking the necessary steps to help your healing. if she doesn't do this, then it is up to self to take these steps. it may feel like you were being horrid, but i don't think that is the case (urg i hate it when feelings don't tell us the truth!). you were simply stating some facts about how your appointments go. also, if this has been eating at you and you've been holding it in, then telling the psychiatrist sounds like a good choice. it's not like you made screaming complaints to a board to have her reviewed or anything. you were just planning the best treatment with your psychiatrist. it seems like this was an appropriate person to discuss your concerns with. it might have been a snap decision to tell, but i think it was a good one

and for the record, you are worth the time and effort and deserve so much more than what pnurse has been giving you her inattention is probably a result of her being too involved in herself and other commitments to be able to see your needs. which is a reflection of her poopiness, not of your worth. it certainly sounds like your psychiatrist is there for you and listening and looking out for your best interests.

are you also scared and anxious about what these changes may mean? i think i would find it scary. new people, new approaches, the big unknown. i really hope this brings positive changes for your healing sending you some gentle peace and calm to help you through the transition ~~~~~~

[silentandscared]

Dinosaur

yes l am very scared about what all these new changes will mean, how they will work, what they will consider my needs are etc

but Pdoc has assured me that the new T will be specialised in trauma work so that is a great relief as long as she immediately doenst want to insist on integration of us

thank you for your reply ..............am feeling calmer about it after reading what people have replied it sure has helped...............so thank you

SAS xx