[googley]

I miss my T. I haven't seen her for a couple of weeks because of work craziness (job, no job, job, not as many hours as told.) Ugh.

I have been fine so far and after the first week of not being able to see T. But now I'm seeing her again next Tuesday and I am starting to really really miss her.

Beyond that, I told my T that I could see her because I had gotten a new job. However, the job was supposed to be 24 hrs a week that would provide me with enough hours to pay for T, pay for meds, and cover the increasing cost of gas and food. It seemed like a great job because I would have been able to keep it through the end of my schooling. However, now it is only going to be 12 hours a week. That is not enough to cover T and meds and food and gas. So I have stopped taking my meds.

I'm afraid to go back to see T next week and say that I can only afford to come three of the four weeks in the month. Especially when I told her I had a new job and everything was good when I talked to her on the phone. Ugh. There is too much stress in my life.

[darkrunner]

(((((Googley)))))

That all sounds very stressful. It's sounds like you're handling it as well possible even though it sucks.

I'm a little concerned that you stopped taking your meds - does your doctor know? It can be dangerous to stop taking meds.

I'm so sorry that things are so precarious, Googley! Heck, you've done more than most people are able to do! You've consistently worked and been present. Your therapist will be soooooo pleased to hear how hard you've worked to make things come together. It isn't many people who are able to stay connected at their worksite, pay for their medication and remained committed to their therapy. I believe that if you talk to your therapist you will be able to work out a plan to remain in therapy even though if your job isn't able to give you full time hours. Good luck!

[googley]

darkrunner,
I know i shouldn't just go off my meds. But I called my health center and they didn't have an appointment for three weeks, so I'm kind of on my own till then. Stopping them has always had to do w/ money or access to my Pdoc. This time is both.