pocket riders needed

for session this evening... I don't want to say most of the things I need to talk about.

It's going to be somewhere from to

I'll come along!

Oh man, me too. I have session in 1/2 hour and my strategy is to talk around stuff. I need to protect my emotions for awhile. Even took a klonopin to help me be detached.

Sure, can I come be your pocket rider? What time/time zone?

Suratji - mine is 6pm EDT (US). I will be able to come with you and be back in time for mine. hang in there - and thanks!!

Suratji - I'll come along with you too

I am coming, for both of you, Sawe and suratji!

im in and hanging with poet and friends

I'll be there with you!!!

Do you like curmudgeons? Or, at least, can you stand them in your pocket? You never know what they might do (or think).

I'm here!

thank you, all kind friends. see ya

let us know how it goesthinking about you

im kinda ok with that lol

I'll sit next to pachy

I'll be in your right pocket

I'm going, twinnie.

I hope your T can tell us apart!

Make room for me!

well........... she said I am definitely not her worst client
and i pushed her, she said I am not next to the worst, either.

I really want to thank you all for your care and support, i felt it really and it means A LOT to me. you folks are the best

Thanks a lot, T!

let me restate. I said, I'm sure I am your worst client and she said no.
and THEN I pushed for next to last and she said no.
there now, does that sound better?!

This was not the happiest of sessions. I went in feeling much like a therapy failure.

I did tell her about the dream I had, breaking into a house with my DH and the owner surprising us, and and how DH tried to get me to kill the guy and when I refused, he left me... I asked whether she thought that maybe the DH character was really her, a sort of authority figure who has taken me "into myself" to look around for precious, hidden things, in spite of all my trepidatons; and whether the "owner" showing up was my own resistance, which she has beaten on it so to speak in a professional manner, but it's up to me to put it away for good (kill it) and I couldn't do it... and then in the dream I was abandoned for this failure...

T was very displeased and would only say that these dreams I bring in are so negative... she said, when you interpret an event IRL, SAWE, it's always negative... and I tried to lighten the moment by saying, "always, T? isn't that what CBT calls black and white thinking?" but she wasn't having any of it. Yikes.

((((SAWE))))

ok now i would have laughed at the cbt thing and i think my T would have also unless it was used to avoid a more serious problem and to deflect

((((((sawe))))))

Oh she knew it was me all right.
She fished up a memory of something I told her about maybe two years ago... I couldn't believe it. Gosh, do you suppose they really do LISTEN?