Nervous about T on Monday

Dani · May 02, 2011, 03:14 AM

I'm really nervous about T tomorrow because I feel like the last session was so unproductive and wanted to quit so badly but didn't have the nerve to say anything, so I was quiet for most of the session. I'm up way later than I should be, it's 3am here right now and I see T at 8, and I can't sleep. It's frustrating and I'm afraid she's going to get sick of me because I don't talk much and can't open up. I'm thinking that I need to switch to seeing her at her other office about 30 miles away because it's more comfortable and the office I see her at right now is very uncomfortable because I can hear everything going on outside the office and get easily distracted by people talking in the reception area. But I'm not sure how to tell her and worry that she'll think I'm making a big deal out of nothing because she's told me that the people outside the door can't hear us, but I worry that they can.

Splintered · May 02, 2011, 06:16 AM

Could you write down how you feel about the office and wanting to switch to the other one and show it to her? I think a lot of people (me included) would struggle to talk while they could hear other people just outside. It's hard enough to talk as it is! I hope you can let her know that you would like to switch to the other office - as long as she has times free to see you in at that office then I think the choice is really up to you.

if ok

SoupDragon · May 02, 2011, 07:12 AM

Hi - I find it so hard to talk to my T too - let us know how it went today.

WePow · May 02, 2011, 07:38 AM

Thinking of you now!!!

dizgirl2011 · May 02, 2011, 07:46 AM

Hey,

I hope the session goes well. Try not to be hard on yourself for not talking as much as you would like, it can be very difficult. Perhaps the actually inablity to talk is something you need to ask her help in and see what way you could both work around it (maybe by writing or emailing before a session etc).
I think it's understandable to find the noise distracting, I know I would too.

*hugs*
xxx

Dani · May 02, 2011, 10:27 AM

Well it turned out to be a good session. We talked about a lot of different things, nothing too deep, but I was able to actually talk a little bit. At the end I brought up the issue with her office and asked if it would be okay for me to see her at her other office because I would feel more comfortable and she was definitely okay with it. So I'm glad she understood and hopefully seeing her in the other office will make me more comfortable, keeping all the outside distractions out.