I just quit T

karebear1 · May 03, 2011, 07:44 PM

OMG Zoo....... I just hate the fact that you understand what I'm saying (because you are experiencing yourself), BUT love, and so appreciate that you are going through the same thing and can understand and empathsize with me. I think it's a bonus that our "wonder twin" experiences are exactly the same at the same time. Now, we just need to activate and unite our wonder twin powers to beat this thing together! ; )

I'm too much too. : ( But I don't think you're too broken for us here at PC.

rainbow8 · May 04, 2011, 08:47 AM

I want to give you and zoo some hugs. I sort of feel that BPD will be with me forever, that 5 Ts haven't changed me, and I'm "old" too. But we've got to keep trying, and we'll get through and get better!!!

karebear1 · May 04, 2011, 09:37 AM

Rainbow- I think the most wonderful thing I've found here is that there are lots of people that really understand where we are coming from. Just being able to come here and post something and have so many people reach out with their hearts to a perfect stranger is so touching to me. But, I guess we're only perfect strangers in the fact that we haven't ever met each other. We are not strangers in that we share the same experiences and pains and feelings. Our souls can communicate with each others and on the deepest of deep levels, that is where it counts and that is what joins us. It's like what WePow said- right? It makes us sisters.

I'm so thankful for everyone here.

karebear1 · May 04, 2011, 09:42 AM

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Originally Posted by BlessedRhiannon

Karebear - I've had similar expereinces as Tree....not that I felt that I screwed up the relationship, but that I completely panicked after revealing something to my T, and just wanted to pull back and quit. When I told my T that I wanted to quit, she always asked me why, told me she was very glad I didn't, and asked me to trust her just enough to try one more session. My T always managed to make things better, but I had to take that first step of doing something different and not running away when I felt the relationship might be screwed up.

Just this once, maybe you could try something different too...maybe you could try turning things over to your T and asking her to help you fix whatever it is you think you messed up and help you learn how to change that behavior. If you keep running everytime you think you've messed up, you'll never learn how to not run away.

Thinking of you, and hoping you can work through this.

I've been re-reading people's responses to me this morning and for some reason yours hit me in a different way.

I think I might try turning things over to T, like you suggested, and ask her to help me get out of this rut of always blaming myself. It isn't T that is making me feel like I did anything wrong- not at all! It's definetly me- and it wears me down. I think she's been trying in her consistant patient way to help me understand it, but until now, I don;t think I even had an inkling of what she's been doing along those lines.

Why, or why, is it so hard for me to see things like this?

Thanks BR- I once again am appreciating your words today.

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