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#1
May 11, 2011, 10:39 PM
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Tonight I saw the person who's the reason I'm in therapy and it went badly. Texted T since I'm non-verbal now and couldn't call. Waiting for reply. It's late here so he's probably asleep anyway.
I hate this situation! |
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#2
May 11, 2011, 10:42 PM
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So sorry you are having a rough time right now, Elli-Beth! Sending you hugs. I'll be on awhile longer, if you want to PM me for someone to chat with.
 
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#3
May 11, 2011, 10:52 PM
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I'm sorry, Elli-Beth...that sounds so hard. And I know how hard it is to wait for a reply.
Breathe, be gentle with yourself. You are okay, even though you might not FEEL okay. to you.
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#4
May 11, 2011, 10:56 PM
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I'm in a safe location for the night but it doesn't feel safe. I think I'm gonna keep the lights and the noise machine on all night to drown out scary sounds. It has a good crickets setting. I'm just going to journal I think.
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#5
May 11, 2011, 11:58 PM
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sounds like a great plan. I'm so glad you are safe.
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#6
May 12, 2011, 12:07 AM
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Ellie-beth, I'm so sorry you're struggling. I know how hard it is to wait for T to contact you back, especially when you know it's probably not going to be for quite a few hours.
Stay safe.
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---Rhi |
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#7
May 12, 2011, 05:36 AM
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Nothing yet. I did doze off for a few hours and I might get to see my other support person today, but I really need T's help on this one! I'm 100% non-verbal and today is NOT a good day for that! Other fear related issues were a problem all night.
I just want to hear from him or see him to feel safe again! What if he's going to make me wait until Monday to prove to me I can handle this on my own?! I can't! |
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#8
May 12, 2011, 05:58 AM
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((((((Elli-Beth)))))))
Can you text him again today? From what you've said, he sounds so responsive and caring. I doubt he'll make you wait until Monday, although I SO understand that fear.
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#9
May 12, 2011, 06:02 AM
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Hang in the Elli Beth
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never mind... |
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#10
May 12, 2011, 06:22 AM
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Tree,
I've thought about faxing him to ask if he got my text. He is a techno-dinsosaur (he's the one who sent the blank text the first time) so maybe that's it. And it was late, like 11pm and it's still early now like 7am and he does have a houseful of kids. And when I texted last time I told him I'd waited until a "polite hour" to send it so maybe he's doing the same. I'm trying to convince myself, I know... I feel like a little kid crying that I want my mommy and I want to go home, but as a kid I didn't get either because of the various forms of abuse/neglect. So posting this has helped me figure out that trigger and feeling. That's good I guess. |
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#11
May 12, 2011, 07:40 AM
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(((((((((elli)))))))))))
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#12
May 12, 2011, 07:42 AM
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((Big safe hugs)) I'm sorry you are having a rough time, and I hope you hear from T soon!
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#13
May 12, 2011, 08:22 AM
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Okay, going to try to fax him or have someone else call. I HATE mutism!
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#14
May 12, 2011, 08:31 AM
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Hey (((((((elli))))))))) I'm very sorry, it must be so difficult not to be able to use your words
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#15
May 12, 2011, 09:38 AM
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(Insert your favorite cuss word here)!!! The office downstairs where I would normally fax is closed and my other support person I'd trust to call is in a big meeting. I'm starting to think he just didn't get the two texts because of his dino phone. (But it worked before in a crisis!?!?). I'm back up in my room just having a good scared cry. I don't know how to handle this!
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#16
May 12, 2011, 12:24 PM
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Oh no, all sympathy, dino phones suck
 My T's phone is also playing up today right when I need her. It's so hard not knowing whether they've even got the message.I definitely vote for having someone else call- is there someone you can ask?
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#17
May 12, 2011, 02:36 PM
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I feel so bad for you. Its so hard to be in the situation youre in (i've been there too- I hate not being able to speak) and its so hard waiting to hear back from your T. I really really hope you hear from him VERY soon. Keep us updated.
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#18
May 12, 2011, 03:03 PM
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All good now! He finally got the texts just before I found my other support person on a break and she called for me. He was able to see me right away. I'm still "destabilized" and "distressed" but feeling safer now and my words are at about 25% normalish. He gave me a new anchor and even recorded a message on my phone for in case I panic. And we have a better emergency contact plan for when I'm non-verbal.
Thanks to y'all for the positive thoughts and virtual hugs! PC really helped me make it through this one! |
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May 12, 2011, 03:41 PM
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Hi Elli-Beth,
I am so glad that you were able to see your Therapist and that you feel a bit safer! ((((hugs))))
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#20
May 12, 2011, 04:21 PM
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Back in my safe place now after the appt and am going to nap since I barely slept last night. I get to spend time with my support person tonight practicing talking! Almost like having TWO T appts in the same day!
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