[DelusionsDaily]

Ok all I am absolutely terrified to go see my T. Dont get me wrong I adore my T. However I went to Pdoc and well the appt was AWFUL. I got real honest about everything to do with sui. This will be the first time that Pdoc and I have discussed something so major. T and I have always kinda rehashed pdoc appointments...which up unril now has pretty much been dosage changes. How am I going to get through a rehash of sui stuff when I barely got through it with Pdoc without being sent to the hospital. Im terrified T will end up being the one sending me for evaluation at the hospital. My stomach turns just thinking about the conversation...well high probability the conversation is going to take place. If it get to be too much I can always refuse to talk about it...I guess...although she probably wouldnt take that too well. I dont know what I need help for...just want to give up on Pdoc and T...in the end only I end up paying a high price for that. i guess I will just go with it....Eeeek. Well update to come tomorrow if I am let free from T's office.

[nannypat]

Originally Posted by MELISSSAD81

Ok all I am absolutely terrified to go see my T. Dont get me wrong I adore my T. However I went to Pdoc and well the appt was AWFUL. I got real honest about everything to do with sui. This will be the first time that Pdoc and I have discussed something so major. T and I have always kinda rehashed pdoc appointments...which up unril now has pretty much been dosage changes. How am I going to get through a rehash of sui stuff when I barely got through it with Pdoc without being sent to the hospital. Im terrified T will end up being the one sending me for evaluation at the hospital. My stomach turns just thinking about the conversation...well high probability the conversation is going to take place. If it get to be too much I can always refuse to talk about it...I guess...although she probably wouldnt take that too well. I dont know what I need help for...just want to give up on Pdoc and T...in the end only I end up paying a high price for that. i guess I will just go with it....Eeeek. Well update to come tomorrow if I am let free from T's office.

If you had such an honest conversation with your p/doc you are to be congratulated. That is a very hard thing to do. During that conversation he must have evaluated you and come to a conclusion that you were ok to walk out of his office or he would have hospitalized you right then and there. As long as you feel you can keep yourself safe, You can be proud to tell your T about your meeting with your p/doc and how honest you were with him and that you will be honest with her as well about your safety. Of course you have to be true to your word about this. I built up a lot of trust with my treaters by being honest with them and unfortunately that meant there was a time or two I had to admit I was not sure I could keep myself safe and I was put into the hospital. They didn't have to stress about what decision to make because they knew I was being honest with them.
I hope you feel better soon.

[Omers]

dunno if it helps any but the 2 times I have been sent to the hosp. it was always Pdocs call not T. But IMO you don't have to talk about anything in therapy... but it would be a good idea.

[DelusionsDaily]

Thanks yeah im not sure why pdoc let me go Cuz when she first mentioned it I thought it was definite. When I went to hospital T sent me because i was with her and not pdoc. i am exhausted hopefully i feel better tomorrow.