Missing my T

I know I only went to him twice, but I looked forward to seeing him...he 'got' me right away--as soon as we met. He knew just how to talk to me, and I felt safe. I didn't even get to say good bye...his receptionist called and told me he wasn't coming to my clinic any longer, his court dates changed (he is mostly a criminal clinician--I was a special case). He no longer had a free day to come to my clinic

It just hit me how much I miss him, I don't know why now...but I do. I feel hurt, sad and alone and lost...

I can sure understand your feelings.....it is amazing how one person can make so much difference so quickly. When I was in the medical hospital for 2 months at the beginning of this year for anemia & mal nutrition care (central line with IV nutrition), my GP had the hospitals pdoc & psychologist come in to see me everyday. It was at the same time my Mother died from cancer & I had just gone through a horrible trauma with the home care RN (ID theft, calling the police on me about abusing my Mother, & threats....besides OD'ing my Mother on morphine).

The psychologist came into my room & was able to ask just the right questions for me to be able to communicate some of what was going on inside of me. Everyone was so sure I was dealing with anorexia......but it was caused by the stress I was going through. For some reason, I felt so comfortable with him I was able to open up more than I ever had opened up with any of my previous psychologists. After I was finally discharged from the hospital, I was so hoping I could continue on with him......I felt like I was in a tornado with everything flying around me with something new hitting me around constantly. Unfortunately, he wouldn't take me as a private patient.....his reason was that he was going through some personal illness himself like the psychologist I was going to. I was in a place where I really needed someone like him to help me through the trauma which was turning into PTSD.......then when he couldn't/wouldn't take me, I started feeling horribly rejected even though I knew it wasn't that.....I couldn't stop that feeling.

After that, I was desperate & did go back to the psychologist I had 8 years ago, & just lately, went back to the psychologist I was seeing when I went through the trauma

However to be honest, out of 12 years of therapy, the one I had in the hospital is actually the only psychologist I seemed to have had that kind of open relationship with so I can relate to how quickly it is to bond to someone who is really helping us.

I do hope you can find good help soon in your future.....it is hard when we need help very bad & then trying to find someone who comes up to the same level as the one we really feel comfortable with.

Take care of yourself,
Debbie

{{{{{debbie}}}}} So sorry to hear about everything that happened to you in such a short time! =O I hope your T is taking good care of you, and hopefully I find a new one soon. Thank you for replying =)

Sorry this happened. Hopefully you'll find someone else you get along with real soon.

I am sorry that you find yourself in this position. I hope you find another that you like just as much soon.

I´m so sorry for you! I´ve lost my psychologist... It feels terrible! He was like a friend to me! He has got a new job and has moved away. I was his patient between November last year until 2 weeks ago. I´m feeling confused and sad loosing him... We had a lot of laughes together besides tears... He really cared for me, I could feel it! At one time he was at my home and helped me with my compulsions. I´m so grateful to him! Well, I just hope that I´ll like my new psychologist when I see him or her!

Hang in there! I know how it feels...

Lots of hugs!
Nina