I did it !!! yup i really did it

My T practices mindfulness. That's why we do breathing and meditation, though not every session. She wants me to do it every day at home or at least when I'm stressed but I forget.

She also had me read the book Peace is Every Step byThinh ? I keep forgetting his name but it is such a joyful, soothing little book. Also, Wherever You Go There You Are about mindfulness. It is all about experiencing the present moment because that's all we have. Feeling calm, peaceful, and content. Yoga helps with that too.

Your visiting the waterfalls is a good example of mindfulness! BTW, I went to a Japanese garden and they had waterfalls and I thought of you!

I'm going to call you Dr Granite from now! Maybe that's what was happening to me when my T was playing the old jazz music - I was physically remembering my dad playing the wind-up Victrola, as a comforting lullaby. I do remember him doing it in later years at the dining room table, but no concrete memories as you say, of before.

I will pay more attention to those "buzzing" moments. I thought they were related to anxiety, but even how I experience anxiety is weird. It's like I'm on a different level or floor than my anxiety. But when the buzzing happens, it's - I'm - all in one place. Oh, and T said way at the beginning, years ago, that that is "integrating" - maybe when it's good buzzing like I had with T, not the bad buzzing. Because it felt like there was a huge sign in lights in the room saying COMFORT. And I HAVE been making my home more comfortable these past few days! (it's a mess here.) I will ask him tomorrow.

Thank you Dr Granite, see you same time next week?!