Tomorrow is first of last two appointments

I think I will die! I decided to move away for a job. I leave on the 31st.

((((((((((Crazy))))))))))))) you're going to keep "seeing" your T long distance though aren't you? or did that change

I decided I didn't want to do phone sessions, so this is the end of sessions!

oh crazy can you change your mind if you do want to do them later? ... what made you decide that?

are you going to get a new T when you move?

Thank you for caring, tigergirl.

Yes she says I can change my mind at any time.

i just didn't like the idea of phone sessions. we're very close as you may have read. we have such physical contact and i feel that phone sessions will always leave me wanting more. im tired of longing for things i can never have. plus i see her several times a week and when i move, ill likely only speak to her once or twice.

NO! Okay, maybe after a long, long time.

I can understand the idea that they'd make you hunger for more and that the pain of that could be unbearable that's such a tough one and yes, i've read about how close you are and the hugging; how far are you going to move?

What will you do about support in the meantime? ... other than us that is

Ok then!
It does make sense to give yourself time... But you might not let go of your current T all the way. At least not with the stress of moving.
We are here for you.

I am moving about 250 miles away to another state. She mentioned helping me through the transition, but I just can't do it. I don't function like normal human beings. I am an all or nothing kind of person.

And yes, I will have PC. Otherwise, I will try to get my cat to pay more attention to me.

Could you take her with you? ("have T will travel")

I'm so sorry. I can't imagine how hard that will be. You say you're an 'all or nothing' person but you know what? - you can change. Although a long distance relationship is tough, at least it's better than nothing. I have a friend who loved her T so much that once a month she drove 7 hours to have a session. Can you do that? On the other hand, you know what's best for you. In any case, it sucks and I'll be thinking of you.

Ive repeatedly asked my T to move with me. She's being difficult!

Originally, the plane was for phone/skype sessions and then I'd come back to see her once a month or more. I just don't know if I can do it! I wish I could change but its hard for me to change even simple things.

I'm sure your cat will love you up. Just ask nicely.

I wish she'd stop being so difficult that would make all of this much easier for you ... if you really can't contemplate continuing with her, what would be the advantages or disadvantages of seeing someone else sooner than a long, long time?

well therapy has been very intense for me. i think i need a break from all the remembering and nightmares

both good reasons and this gives a nice time for a break; just wish you didn't have to leave your T when you are so close though

i know!!! i may move back in a year. who knows? i asked if I could move in with her and she also refuses. ive never had someone so close to me. it breaks my heart to leave her.

you have a difficult T there! won't get in your suitcase, won't let you move in Somehow it IS going to be ok though even though right now it doesn't feel like it at all

Yeah. I do know that eventually...after a very, very long time, I will be okay without seeing and talking to her so often. Thank you so much for listening, tigergirl, skysblue, flooded, and Omers.

Crazy. Stay cool.

well i can definitely promise to stay crazy

I'm making a wild and crazy guess here. I think that you'll end up deciding to stay in touch with T even though you're that 'all or nothing' person. As you compare what is the most/least painful, you'll decide that there will be a bit less pain with 'some' contact, as unfulfilling as that is.

Aww Crazy, so sorry to hear that. Hope you can resolve things and I know your t will be there for you if you change your mind