Not a Word in Edgewise

skysblue · Aug 31, 2011, 05:54 PM

Just had a session with T after a 4 hour drive home. It was so so so great. I asked her at the beginning if I could talk. Funny, huh? That's all I usually do but I told her this time it would be doubtful if she would be able to get a word in because I had an incredible amount to share with her. 5 days since last session and I feel like I have lived a complete lifetime in those 5 days.

I told her that, for me, talking about what has happened is a way for me to better process the events and that I didn't expect her to have any comments and I really didn't need any. And the reason is that I had come to some significant personal realizations since last Friday and I am feeling joy and happiness and I wanted to share completely what had transpired. And that all I wanted was to be able to talk about it to another human being and have that person listen to me and share my total delight.

She agreed and it was great. The last 10 minutes we had time to discuss how the lessons I learned in therapy greatly enhanced my ability to process the 'movement' that is occurring -all internal and transforming. I feel very hopeful right now and I think T understands much more where I'm coming from after this latest session.

beauflow · Aug 31, 2011, 05:56 PM

That sounds awesome

i'm glad to hear you are doing great. Your post has brought a smile to my face

i hope you continue forward

Wren_ · Aug 31, 2011, 06:27 PM

that sounds great sky

I'm happy it was such a help to you

I read about the earlier session last week, but missed if you shared on Friday's?

Aug 31, 2011, 06:29 PM

Sounds like you're in a good place right now ... so glad for you!! And thanks for sharing the good news with us.

skysblue · Aug 31, 2011, 07:06 PM

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Originally Posted by tigergirl

that sounds great sky

I'm happy it was such a help to you

I read about the earlier session last week, but missed if you shared on Friday's?

Oh yeah, last Wednesday is when I read to her my 4 'complaints' and it took all the courage I could muster. i had told her I couldn't discuss them with her, i.e. I did not have enough courage to listen to any response she might have.

Then last Friday, I was lucky that she knew me well enough that I was still not able to 'hear' her responses to my complaints about her. She had suggested last Wednesday that we revisit some 'trauma' stuff and that's what I expected last Friday but luckily that didn't happen and instead I led us on a wandering expedition - we were all over the map (avoidance maneuvers very much in play) before she forced herself into my stream of consciousness monologue and suggested that I study mindfulness and we did an exercise that I totally couldn't do and she loaned me a book to read.

So funny how that all played out. Our little dance. But after today I think I'll be ready to tackle the tough stuff next week. I feel energized by my newfound insights and I feel less fearful. And T seems excited too.

Wren_ · Aug 31, 2011, 07:32 PM

Ah ok I saw the post about mindfulness; so you still haven't discussed her response to the four complaints?

That's so awesome that you had such a good session today and are so energized now

skysblue · Aug 31, 2011, 07:47 PM

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Originally Posted by tigergirl

Ah ok I saw the post about mindfulness; so you still haven't discussed her response to the four complaints?

That's so awesome that you had such a good session today and are so energized now

I don't even think I want to discuss those complaints. I was able to tell her about them and I wonder if that's enough. Do I really need her explanations or her point of view? I don't think so, do I? Is it possible it's over with me? I guess I'll know at some point or another. I had forgotten about them until you brought it up.