My T has been gone for a month now taking care of her family thats ill. I miss her so much. Its so hard to hold everything in for such a long time. Her phone isnt working out of the country so we cant talk or text like she promised.
Its all really getting to me.
I have a new job which pays lots less so i cant afford T right now anyway.... I just am so lonely and overwhelmed by keeping things in.
I have friends but no one i can talk to about abuse/ DID / etc stuff.
Lately all i do after work and on weekends is lay on the couch and do nothing. Just so overwhelmed.

Thanks for listening to me whine. I just wish T would come home. She doesnt know when she can come home though

[WePow]

Sending you VERY big hugs!!!! It sounds very painful and lonely to not have T there with you when you need her. Keep being honest about how you feel.
Do you think there is anything you can do with your alters (such as art therapy) that you could show your T when she finally does return? Something to make her proud of you for keeping up the hard work while she was gone?

We are feeling a good bit better. T called us tonight and we talked over an hour. Will write more tomorrow

[Wren_]

that's great she was able to call finally I'm sure that was a help to all of you

[rainbow8]

I am so happy for you that your T finally called you and talked for an hour. I can imagine the relief you feel, though I understand how hard it is that she's so far away.

[rainbow_rose]

I'm glad you got to talk to her, SarahMichelle!!

It really was so good to talk to her. The inside kids got to talk to her the most, and a few of them are in a better mood. I talked to her for just a few minutes about something that was rather pressing. I got threatened and verbally attacked this week, and although I don't really care what people say about me when I KNOW they are just lying, it does get tiresome and VERY annoying to put up with. So I talked to T about that and it was good to have her on my side.
I am not sure what the kids talked to her about. I know 1 or 2 of them was crying, but I don't know about what. They like to keep their secrets with T, and she is good about keeping their confidences. I do know that one of them who is 1 of the youngest and has a very special relationtionship with T, talked to her and cried a lot, and T kept reminding her that she loves her and is thinking of her no matter where she's at and was telling her to remind herself "T loves me, T loves me". I have heard her at night telling herself that so I think that helped a lot.

T is extremely busy helping with the family emergency going on and has very bad internet (Dial up! Who has THAT anymore?! Ick!) so its hard for her to get online much. But she thinks she has figured out a way to get a phone to work finally, but is going to call the phone company to figure out a way to text again... that would be really good. She is hoping she can call us again this week.

Miss her so much. Just can't wait for her to be able to come home. She still has no idea when that will be. But I'm so grateful she called.

[Wysteria]

Hey there..

So very happy that you were able to talk to your T and that the others were too and get the time and attention that they needed from her. What a complete joy it is to see you all so happy and "hear" the relaxed tone in your voice...

Wonderfully happy and contented huggles to all...

Wysteria Blue

Sarah Michelle. Yeah, t called... betcha it made your day and the kids as well. Must feel soo good!

Thank you everybody. T called tonight and talked to all of us for about 3 hours. It was nice and we're feeling quite a bit better. She said her plan is to talk to us twice a week from now on, as things are settling down a bit where she is at, although occassionally crazy busy so she still doesn't know which nights she can call, she can at least make somewhat of a plan. So that should be helpful. yay!

Cant wait for her to be able to come hooooome

[rainbow_rose]

that's great to hear, SarahMichelle.

[Wysteria]

Such AWESOME great news! I'm so glad that ya'll got to talk to her and have some great time together and that she can commit to some time with you each week until she can come back home...Very happy for you!!

Huggles,

Wysteria Blue

Thanks so much for the support.
We still have one that doesn't talk out loud (she did sign language with T) so that is still an issue we've got to figure out how to resolve...as soon as T is at a place with better internet they can chat on Skype and see each other to sign. T is hoping that things will settle down soon--things are already better than they were.
Just want her home (wait, did I say that already?)

[Butterflies Are Free]

I am so glad you had a chance to talk to your T!