[Wren_]

I'm not sure what to do with this? I fall apart so quickly in a T session; and get triggered so easily. Then the rest of the session is spent recovering from that and not progressing with anything else. If I look back at the end sometimes it's a question of; but I didn't say what I wanted to, didn't address what I wanted to look at, I just ... fell apart

again

Now I'm thinking, I'm spending a lot of money and time to sit crying and have someone sit with me through the tears, but what am I achieving? The other day we started on a topic and I started confidently; then T said something and I got triggered and off I went again and he suggested backing away from the topic so I felt safe again. But if I need to stay where I feel safe then how will anything change?

How do I get my emotions and thoughts to stay stable long enough to get something done

[lastyearisblank]

I just want to offer you a hug tigergirl, it is hard work and sometimes we can beat ourselves up if we are not progressing the way we want to. But it's a good question, why spend the money if we are just going to avoid the real meaty stuff. What is the hard part for you, for me I know it's fear... of triggering something too hard for the T to tackle.... like I don't know.... what if they don't know what to say...

[skysblue]

Tigergirl - so sorry. Have you asked T how things can change if you always need to stay in a safe place? Maybe the 'process' explained will make you feel better.

[PTSDlovemycats]

Perhaps T and you can create a safe place for you and T can gently guide you through some of the difficult stuff. Just make sure T knows what some of your triggers are if you haven't already warned him.

[ECHOES]

Accept where you are and give yourself compassion and plenty of time. This is a process and movement can be slow, but that doesn't mean that it isn't important or meaningful.
Fears and self-protection can keep us from being how we want to be, so we keep going to work on those so we can speak more freely.