[Daisymay]

I've just had a really difficult session with my T - would like to describe it as 'horrendous' but she wouldn't like that word.
I only see her once a month now. I have had quite a difficult month and have been feeling low again which I haven't done for several months. Something that's happened in the last eight months is that I've lost my Mum and I think it's the grieving I'm still doing that's pulled me down recently. For some reason she seemed to think it was about something else because I said I felt I could cope as long as she was there. Is there something wrong with saying that? For me it's true.
She then spent most of the session talking at me and criticising the things I tell myself. Apparently I need to learn 'at some point' that I 'am enough'. In other words I don't need anyone else. We sort of argued (in a polite way) and I got really upset thinking she wasn't listening to me.
Eventually I dissolved into tears and told her all I really wanted was some comfort. I've got a lot on my plate coping with my husband's and my son's aspergers, my sister learning disability and her illness and now my Dad's depression. She is my only source of support and I feel really let down. She's made me feel I've let myself down for getting low again and not remembering 'I am enough'.
I'm wondering whether to send her an email and tell her. But I suppose that could just make it worse.

[Sannah]

So you are beginning termination? If so maybe it is premature?

[Daisymay]

Hi Sannah, no I'm not finishing therapy. We've reduced it down to one a month (sometimes I go longer) as it's all I can afford now. Mostly I'm okay with that.

[Sannah]

She definitely needs to know how she came across to you.

[likewater]

I dont think she meant to be critical even if that' s how it sounded to you. I' m sorry to hear you lost your mom. That' s huge for you and your dad, also probably more complicated if he has depression.Also
having a son and husband who have asperbergers has to be demanding.
It seems like you needed your T to be a better listener. It sounds like you didnt feel heard only criticiced.

[unaluna]

Wow, it sounds to me like she thinks you are having self-esteem issues, as in "down ON yourself", so she was saying you ARE enough, whereas I hear you saying you are FEELING down and rightfully so, as previous possible sources of support (family members) are needing more, and not able to give back right now. Perhaps it would have been more helpful to advise or brainstorm how to find other sources of support, or as you say, simply to comfort you. I think, I hope it was just a misunderstanding. I think you ARE enough, in that you seem strong in all you have been handling, but that doesn't mean you must bear these life burdens alone.