well I mamaged it !!!

I went in this afternoon and told T, "I have something for you, don't let me forget to give it to you."
But she didn't have to remind me, I remembered. Almost at very end of session I reached into my pocket and held out my closed hand. Here, I have something for you. She reached hers out, palm up, with that "oh no you didn't buy me something did you " look

and into it I dropped a tiny acorn.

I said, 'great oaks from little acorns grow', T; and some time this month we will pass the 4 year mark in our work together. There are two great old oaks standing right outside the front door of this place; I recommend you stop by them, take a good look at them, listen to the wind in their leaves... you have tended many little acorns, in your years in this work, who are now great oaks, and if they are, it's because of you. I myself am not one yet, to be sure, but I have hopes.

There!! one less thing I have to post under "things you really want to tell your T, but can't".... And i am so glad I did. I could tell she heard me.

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Aaaah, that is so awesome. How did she respond? It's how I feel towards my T too.

That's nice, SAWE

what an amazing thought and gift to give your T you are so sweet SWE

What a wonderful and amazing gift

This brings tears (happy ones!). Beautiful. Thank you for sharing.

You are so amazing! Your T is very lucky to be able the one you allow to help you on your healing journey!

You are so thoughtful, that was a wonderful thing you did! Brought good tears to my eyes too!

what an amazing moment with your therapist.

that is so special for both of you well done for doing this

I think she was sort of startled, and then in typical T fashion she deflected it from herself... she told me what I was like when we first started, and what a long long way she sees that I have come. I reminded her that she once told me, "the ability to tolerate anxiety is healing," and said how on that day I wanted to smack her (she said, like "wap-wap-wappity-wap" and I said "exactly", and we laughed. And I told her that today, even though I surely still have anxiety, I understand what she said. At end of session she looked at the acorn and said, I really like this, I'm going to keep it.

well Sblue it's that time of the year, there are a lot of acorns out there to be picked up

Well done!