[REEG]

Whew. Tough day on Thursday. Called my T, and she called me back-I was @ a training for work. listened to me for a while and then told me to just. LEAVE. Even said, I know you, it's worse than you are saying. She said 'let me say this as gently as I can, you have the responsibilty to leave'. And I fully itended to. But then, I saw a partcicpant and was back in there. And soon, I was telling myself, no big deal, this is okay. But I don't know if it was okay. I have been reactive and tearful all weekend, and think I was triggered. And my family and friends bear the burden. Same S different day...So I'm dreading going to T on Tuesday. As luck would have it, we need to change our regular time. Without my even asking, there was a schedule change on Tuesday which allows me to go in late and stay late, just what I need to make the session re-schedule. Arugh!

[REEG]

So everything is in place for me to do something different this time, I don't even have to work at it. So I'm asking for some encouragement, to go, to open up and to tell the truth.

[Hope-Full]

Isn't it interesting how our Ts seem to know us better than we think? I know my T always tells me that I minimize everything, too.

I say that you know what you need to do - and you know you can do it - if it's a little kick in the pants you need, consider this the kick

[pbutton]

Think of how good it will feel to be proud that you did something different. Sure, it will be hard, but you will be able to be so proud of yourself for opening up. I had a similar session last week and I managed to take the chance and use it to accomplish something. It's an amazing feeling. Everything is still messed up yet I feel so much lighter. Change is a good thing. Best wishes to you!

[REEG]

Thanks for the responses. And it isn't QUITE the same place, although it feels like it. I'm stretching things out a bit, and figuring out the patterns. So, not as bad as it was, but not where I want to be. Yep, going and being honest is what will be best.

[madisgram]

good for you!