I like her. It takes a lot to impress me, so thumbs up.

She laughs at a lot of stuff I would laugh at. By the end she had papers thrown to the left and to the right of her and said "I'm confused, I can't imagine how you're not". Thank you someone for acknowledging that. I get so overwhelmed and so confused at times, I just start crying uncontrollably, because nobody can make up their minds about where I'm supposed to be or what I'm supposed to be.

Before hand I was with my nurse and I was scared and so upset I said something like "I'm scared, I don't want to go, I don't want a new therapist". I wanted her to say something like "It's okay, it will be fine. You'll do fine". But instead she told me how my previous therapist would never do therapy with me again and I should just deal with it.

???? I know I suck at communicating but can they at least try to work with me?? My psychiatrist is the only one who doesn't misunderstand everything that I say. She took me saying "I don't want a new therapist" as "I miss blankblank and I don't want someone to replace him". I don't understand how she gets that from that? But maybe I don't communicate like everyone else. Apparently. Because things like this happen to me all the time. I just wanted reassurance. They keep saying how they want me to communicate my feelings to them, but every time I do something like this happens. How am I supposed to keep making myself vulnerable like that?

I mean okay, it hurts enough that she doesn't even know the whole story, and they only know his side of it. It hurts that they take his word for it, just because he's a professional. It hurts that he lied and never told anyone what was going on. It hurts that I trusted him and he wasn't someone to trust. But to make it THAT obvious that she still thinks it's my fault... I just walked away and went to the group room to sleep. I couldn't cry anymore. I've done enough of it for the last two days.

I guess the good part is, is that I was impressed with my new therapist, and I can see myself feeling safe with her...

[rainbow_rose]

That's great that you like your new therapist, LydiaB.

[SilentLucidity]

LydiaB this is awesome. All the best to you as you settle in with your new T!

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by LydiaB

Before hand I was with my nurse and I was scared and so upset I said something like "I'm scared, I don't want to go, I don't want a new therapist". I wanted her to say something like "It's okay, it will be fine. You'll do fine". But instead she told me how my previous therapist would never do therapy with me again and I should just deal with it.

???? I know I suck at communicating but can they at least try to work with me?? My psychiatrist is the only one who doesn't misunderstand everything that I say. She took me saying "I don't want a new therapist" as "I miss blankblank and I don't want someone to replace him". I don't understand how she gets that from that? But maybe I don't communicate like everyone else. Apparently. Because things like this happen to me all the time. I just wanted reassurance. They keep saying how they want me to communicate my feelings to them, but every time I do something like this happens. How am I supposed to keep making myself vulnerable like that?

The world is full of clumsy oafs. I don't suppose the nurse meant to hurt you.