The greatest tool.

The ability to think things through. I never was able to do that to any useful degree, it was more like Pavlov's dog, I walked through life reacting. I was operating from a phantasy base but didnt have the words to put to the feelings. I thought change would come automatically, but realise now that things inside have to get unknoted bit by bit and then energy has to be put into thinking about why am I reacting like this? why does this situation effect me like this? Its hard work, sometimes harder than others. Its amazing how many layers are involved, how tangled things got, not for the feint hearted thats for sure. I've even asked myselfl once when I caught myself "acting from" rather than "responding too" and asked myself a simple question, "do you want to do this differently", omg you'd think that would be simple to answer, but it was like to japanese sumo wrestlers tugging at each other inside when thought that, I actually had to laugh to myself at my own reaction to change. Then of course that led too...why wouldnt you want to change? what would you loose or gain from changning/not changing? and by the time this had on gone on. in a matter of minutes thought it sounds like hours, I found I could then think about it more and become detached from the feelings. Therapy? ppfffttt lol

I was amazed and horrified to discover how little my analytical skills helped in therapy.

It is very easy for me to build a rich and consistent worldview that has no basis in fact.