[sweepy62]

Hi i have been currently been seeing my t for almost a year for clinical depression generalized anxiety and borderline personality, and she told me i had this borderline thing last session,

i go weekly and its a mental health community and she is good we have a connection but i always have anxiety in the waiting room and a couple of minutes into the session, she knows about my childhood trauma but i have not processed it yet i think i will start next session as it is super difficult i dont want her to get frustrated with me because i am taking too long too tell her about it, another thing is that about 2 or 3 months ago she took on some clients from another therapist and they only allow you to schedule 2 appts ahead, i use to have no problems

now its like every other week i go without seeing her, and its hard enough waiting a week to talk again so imagine 2 weeks, she tells me to call to see if there are any cancellations but i feel like im bothering the receptionsists everyday calling to find out there are no cancellations, i am so frustrated

one of the receptionists asked me if my therapist knew i was calling everyday, i said of course why dont you verify with her. anyway this is me FRUSTRATED

[skeksi]

Wow, that is frustrating. It seems like if you should be able to set one regular weekly appointment if you want. Have you discussed with T the difficulty of getting regular appointments and how disruptive it is to miss weeks? (Even though it seems to me she should know this is not ideal).

I do think you should tell her you are concerned that she is frustrated because you've not yet shared the trauma in detail. I used to be so worried about that, but when I shared my fear with T, he emphasized the importance of sharing at a pace that felt safe to me. So if you share your fears you may be reassured.

I am glad you like your T and I hope you and her can get these difficulties resolved!

[sweepy62]

thanks for responding yes she knows is greatly important she was the one who says that i need to be seen weekly but i guess its beyond her control when i see her next week i will tell her that its frustrating even if its beyond her control, as far as the trauma i guess its just me reading into her because i think if i was the therapist i would kick myself out for not sharing as quickly as i should i suppose

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by sweepy62

thanks for responding yes she knows is greatly important she was the one who says that i need to be seen weekly but i guess its beyond her control when i see her next week i will tell her that its frustrating even if its beyond her control, as far as the trauma i guess its just me reading into her because i think if i was the therapist i would kick myself out for not sharing as quickly as i should i suppose

I feel that a regular weekly slot is a basic human right akin to clean water and religious freedom.