[SweetSunshine]

I am sitting here and I should be getting ready to go . I have to be there at 10am and its a half hr drive. But I feel like staying in my pj's .. I've got a horrible headache almost migrainish like. My hair is a fright. Just want to stay home . But I need to go cause I am nervous about my SSDI appt tomorrow and my declining mood here is not good either. I know what I have to/need to do... I just dont want to do it. Guess this is just a vent in a way. IDK.. Thanks for listening AGAIN~

Bethy

[wi_fighter]

((((((((((Beth)))))))))

I had one of those days in December, during the great Wellbutrin meltdown. I managed to drag my butt in the shower and get dressed, drove the 30 minutes, and completely fell apart in T's office. Did I feel like crap going out looking like that with red puffy eyes and a drippy nose? Oh hell yeah, but if I hadn't, and tried to fake that everything was fine, things would have just kept getting worse.

Let him/her see how you're really doing right now so they can help you when you need it most.

[pegasus]

I find it helpful to vent, and moan before I go to therapy too!
Part of me knows I have to go and another part of me really protests!
I can relate to how you feel on that one!

[SweetSunshine]

Thanks Guys~ Thats sorta what I ended up doing today too. Venting.

I've been a bit peeved at the fact that since I was dx'd I havent recieved any info on how to handle my disorder. You know all the ups and downs of the moods and such. I told him that I needed info, something concrete on how to handle things. And I also talked about how I was getitng nervous about my appt tomorrow . Somewhere in there when we were talking... Ohhh man this gets me ...my T mentioned something about being cyclothymic. I was like WHAT???? I was told this past summer that I was full blown bp2. He does not have that on his records!!!!!! So its sorta up in the air now about what I do have! I am so pissed at my T and my pdoc for not having things wrote down , or whatever !!!!! I am going to make a request that I get copies of all my files now. I want to know what is up with everything. Also being that I have issues with how I had to go to the hospital last time. I have made it known that either it will be on my terms IF I do go again..or I will keep hiding how I Feel. So now my T wants me to get an Advanced Directives drawn up.That way I do have control over the situation.I feel by doing that I am setting myself up for failure.. which is also a big trigger to me. I sat there for that whole session with my arms crossed, and my leg bopping up and down. And I was feeling so angry and hurt by all this . I am just fed up!

Ok this is going to sound absolutely weird but if you want to stay in your pajamas and feel most comfortable that way then stay in them but go to the appointment.

I have different kinds of pajamas that are - shorts and a t shirt, a few night gowns, and shirt and pants. When I get like this I stay in them and pull over them a pair of sweat pants and a sweat shirt. when I get where I am going off comes the sweats and there I am at my comfort level of being in my pajamas. Therapists don't mind at all that the clients wear what they want, need and feel comfortable in and it actually helps in the therapy process to come as you feel.