I don't even know why I go to therapy anymore. It seems so hopeless. Life just is ICK and I hate myself. That doesn't seem to change ever. I don't know how to change how I feel about myself. So what is the point?

[healed84]

I have no advice I just wanted to offer up ((hugs)). Don't give up!!!

It takes time. Think how many years our parents/"care" givers had with us to give us harmful, damaging messages. It's going to take a fair amount of time and repetition of GOOD messages to overcome that. [At least that is what my T keeps saying to me.]

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by roseleigh7

I don't even know why I go to therapy anymore. It seems so hopeless. Life just is ICK and I hate myself. That doesn't seem to change ever. I don't know how to change how I feel about myself. So what is the point?

I'm sorry to hear this. I also see you are lonely. It sounds painful. Not a nice place to be.

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How are you feeling today?

[Sannah]

Originally Posted by roseleigh7

Life just is ICK and I hate myself. I don't know how to change how I feel about myself.

I got better by first identifying the problems that I wanted to work on. Once identified, being aware, aware, aware of everything about it. When the issue would come up, who was involved, how did I feel, etc. Talk about it with T so that it can be explored, explored, explored. T's give good feedback on problems. Getting all of your buried feelings about it out. Once I did all of this the solving was almost done. Making these subconscious issues conscious just about solves the problem.

I just don't know what to do. I don't know what I am doing. I know it sounds weird, but I don't know what I am doing.

Originally Posted by roseleigh7

I just don't know what to do. I don't know what I am doing. I know it sounds weird, but I don't know what I am doing.

Wow, I can REALLY relate to this right now! I have session tomorrow, and I feel like I've just been spinning my wheels lately, both in and out of session. I got triggered by a few things and then my Mom was in the hospital and I'm just LOST. I feel like I have no direction or path or plan...I just keep going to therapy and crying and being sad and I feel like I'm not GETTING anywhere.

Maybe this is part of the process? This feeling of confusion, being lost, not knowing what we're doing?

Or maybe it's something to bring up with T..."I don't know what I'm doing". I may say that tomorrow myself.

I bet it's okay to not know sometimes.

I have therapy tomorrow too. I'll be hoping we can figure this out.

[growlycat]

Originally Posted by roseleigh7

I have therapy tomorrow too. I'll be hoping we can figure this out.

I'm with you in ickville right now. I don't know how therapy is going to help right now.

I'm sorry growlycat.

I really like your name, by the way.