[shoez]

Oh god I dont even know how to contain my panic right now..
im having all these wierd flashbacks and Im so scared I could cry for eternity ...
Today was a really hard and scary T session and I was honest about things for the first time and now I cant deal. too many flashbacks in session. and we havent even talked about EVERYTHING ELSE. ....
I cant even write bout it right now im so scared!!!!

I feel like Im going insane, I cant stop shaking, and feeling like Im going to be in so much trouble, like something horrible HORRIBLE isgoing to happen...
That Im going to be punished by God..
I want to run back to my T's office and cry and tell her to please let me just sit in her office, I cant...Im not safe outside of there this week...
after that session where I had a million flashbacks and she had to "bring me back" how can HOW HOW HOW can I just walk out the door and be ok till next week



it feels like my heart hurts so much its going to explode into a million pieces...I feel this horrible fear and my stomach hurts. Im a piece of crap and I hate myself and im stupid and ugly I want to just
curl up and forget plz plzz

[Chopin99]

shoez, sweetie, shoez...it will be okay. It will pass. The feelings will pass, I promise.

I tell myself this when I have a panic attack and it works. It will pass. You did well in session today.

You are NOT a piece of crap, you are NOT stupid or ugly. You are brave!

Oh, sweetie

Call her. Call your doc. Call someone. We're here and we love you, but if it's this bad, you need to reach out to someone who can help you right now. You can do it.

[FourRedheads]

Yes....call....

[lostmyway21]

I would reach out to your T for help.

[Chopin99]

Sorry, I would've suggested you call T also, but that is not an option for me, so I don't think about it. If you can, do!!!!!!!

[shoez]

Originally Posted by Chopin99

Sorry, I would've suggested you call T also, but that is not an option for me, so I don't think about it. If you can, do!!!!!!!

i cant onnly hav offic number and email nd shes not in office at this time

[lostmyway21]

Email... tell her your in crisis and need a call back ASAP.

[Chopin99]

Originally Posted by shoez

i cant onnly hav offic number and email nd shes not in office at this time

Then by all means email her with your number. Maybe she'll get it? Do you have anyone else you can call that you trust?

Tell us what you need.

[shoez]

Originally Posted by Chopin99

Then by all means email her with your number. Maybe she'll get it? Do you have anyone else you can call that you trust?

Tell us what you need.

im sorry :[ i dont even know what i need. I just ...need to get out of this horribe state
sory

[lostmyway21]

Originally Posted by shoez

im sorry :[ i dont even know what i need. I just ...need to get out of this horribe state
sory

Did you email your T yet?

[mixedup_emotions]

(((( HUGS ))))

I can very much relate to your experience, and it is awful. My T encourages me to get active....do SOMETHING....ANYTHING....to release that excess energy. Whether it's exercise, call a friend, go for a walk, watch a movie that you've wanted to see...Find a way to get grounded in the present....

And always remember....this too shall pass....

[Chopin99]

First, email T. Second, sit and breathe, if you can. I suffer panic attacks too. I have had one each day for the past three days. By telling myself over and over "I will be okay; it is only a panic attack. It will pass; I will be okay."

Try 4 corners breathing. It works pretty well for me; not perfect, but well:

Inhale 4 seconds. Hold 4 seconds. Exhale 4 seconds. Hold 4 seconds. Repeat cycle

Concentrate on counting...1...2...3...4...over and over.

You will be okay, shoez. You will be okay.

[and_im_still_here]

oh, dont worry it moves on happens sometimes and well its passes, try to email your T maybe she will respond very soon

[Chopin99]

Shoez....you ok? Thinking about you...hoping you're ok.

[Sannah]

Hi Shoez, I'm sorry that the session sent you into a tailspin. This can happen. You certainly are not the only one that this has happened to. I hope you are better today and that you got in touch with T. I hope that you both talk about what happened at the next session.

You were probably told to never tell?

[shoez]

Originally Posted by Sannah

Hi Shoez, I'm sorry that the session sent you into a tailspin. This can happen. You certainly are not the only one that this has happened to. I hope you are better today and that you got in touch with T. I hope that you both talk about what happened at the next session.

You were probably told to never tell?

thnk u everybody for ur support yesterday...
I couldnt muster up enough courage to email my T....I was panicking so much..

I hav never told anybody who knows me personaly (besides a friend when i was little and people on the internet anonymously) what hapened ...never ever

and I got so scared my mom wa somehow gonna know i said stuff or something SOMEBODY would know that i told and something realy bad was gonna happen to me like god was gona kill me or make bad stuff happen
idk its stupid. Its too embarassing for me to email my T

[granite1]

sometimes if a T isnt in office they have crisis # that you can call to talk to someone.i hope things are slowing down a bit for you .breathe and take it moment at a time and reach out