[bazza12]

So I have a session tomorrow night and I've been thinking about what we're going to talk about. I do this every week, where I just plan out how I want the conversation to go and it never goes as planned. Sometimes that's good, and sometimes it's not. But since this past weekend has been really bad for me, I feel incredibly anxious about going. My T asks every week how my week has been and every week I feel like I keep saying, "It was okay.." or "Not so good.." and for some reason, I really want to say this time around, "It was good!! Nothing to talk about this week. SEE YUH." But obviously, I'm not going to lie to him. I just wish I had a better update to give him, you know?

But I've noticed too, that every session, I ask him a billion questions before he even gets a chance to ask me anything. Does anyone else do that? I think it's my nerves or something, so I just keep talking. I also kind of had a really difficult time accepting his compliments last week and had a hard time with this positive sayings (I guess you'd call it that) thing we did, and I desperately don't want to do that again. Ugh. Do you think I could tell him I want to do something else? And not talk about the week? And ask him to not compliment me? (I know that sounds weird.) I'm new to the whole therapy process and I'm wondering if as a client you can tell the T what to do..? Or does that defeat the whole purpose of therapy?

[sittingatwatersedge]

>> I ask him a billion questions before he even gets a chance to ask me anything. Does anyone else do that?
well yes I do... but I don't do it every time; you need to do some talking of your own

I think it's my nerves or something, so I just keep talking.
yep

I [...] had a hard time with this positive sayings (I guess you'd call it that) thing we did, and I desperately don't want to do that again. Ugh. Do you think I could tell him I want to do something else?
no, could you tell him you had a hard time with it, and you desperately don't want to do it again, and could we please do it again (and again)?

And not talk about the week? And ask him to not compliment me?
you can ask but don't expect a yes on either....

I'm wondering if as a client you can tell the T what to do..
only to a point. it defeats the purpose of therapy........
if you are getting overwhelmed that's one thing, but uncomfortable stuff... therapy is made up of uncomfortable stuff.... be brave, take a plunge even if it's uncomfortable. you will know if it is unbearable, time to call stop & yr T will understand, but just as in physical therapy you have to stretch in order to heal. Make sense?

many hugs to you!! keep going!