T going away.

lostmyway21 · Feb 08, 2012, 09:27 AM

Hm well if my T was ever wondering how dependent and attached I was, all he had to do was tell me he was going to be out of the office next week, and he got his answer. (through emails every day since Monday)

Granted my living arrangements are falling apart right now and it triggers the worst of me. I'm starting school for the first time, since I got dx'ed two years ago, and I'm on a Med change. I should still have tried harder to not get so upset over him going away.

He promised to email me twice while he was away and I think Skype. I feel super needy and ashamed now. It really doesn't matter how bad my problems are. T needs his time too.

Ughhh I am a bad client.

pbutton · Feb 08, 2012, 11:34 AM

You are not a bad client.

faith1983 · Feb 08, 2012, 12:16 PM

When t is away, it's always hard. If that makes you a bad client, we're all bad clients! I could cry when he tells me that he takes a week off (but I'm always acting like it's not a big deal and then, find myself basically counting the hours before I see him again!)

And, I so understand it's a stressful time for you, but it's really amazing that you are starting school again soon! When is your first class? In what programm?

I'll be thinking about you!

lostmyway21 · Feb 08, 2012, 12:22 PM

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Originally Posted by faith1983

When t is away, it's always hard. If that makes you a bad client, we're all bad clients! I could cry when he tells me that he takes a week off (but I'm always acting like it's not a big deal and then, find myself basically counting the hours before I see him again!)

And, I so understand it's a stressful time for you, but it's really amazing that you are starting school again soon! When is your first class? In what programm?

I'll be thinking about you!

I only feel like a bad client cause hes going to take time away from what hes doing to contact me. Im starting EMT school on the 20th (the day he comes back) nothing to impressive really just trying to add another certification to my name for my current job.

Feb 08, 2012, 12:54 PM

Its so hard when a T is gone! When will yours be back?

Screenager · Feb 08, 2012, 01:06 PM

I feel you, so much. I will soon have to go three weeks without my T!

Two weeks over Christmas was kinda hard already, but at least I had some distractions because of the holidays and going away for a week myself. Now, I'll have nothing. Just three empty weeks with nothing to do but thinking about T.

Thankfully I'm prepared to mention this in an e-mail and hopefully also next session. Maybe we can still have contact via e-mail.

I wish you all the best for this tough time!

lostmyway21 · Feb 08, 2012, 01:17 PM

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Originally Posted by SarahMichelle

Its so hard when a T is gone! When will yours be back?

I feel like I shouldn't be talking at all, seeing the incredibly long time you just waited, for your T to come back. He will be back on the 20th, his first slot is my appt. Thanks god.

im so used to seeing him every like 2-4 days Its just so weird for me.

CantExplain · Feb 08, 2012, 03:13 PM

My T is away.

But I have a somewhat different reaction to most of you here. Instead of longing and panic, I'm starting to wonder:

Did T ever really exist or was it all a dream?

lostmyway21 · Feb 08, 2012, 03:15 PM

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Originally Posted by CantExplain

My T is away.

But I have a somewhat different reaction to most of you here. Instead of longing and panic, I'm starting to wonder:

Did T ever really exist or was it all a dream?

I begin to forget T completely and thats why I panic.

lostmyway21 · Feb 08, 2012, 03:20 PM

I am actually crying on the train thinking about this now. Omg wth is wrong with me.

faith1983 · 04:48 PM

Im starting EMT school on the 20th (the day he comes back) nothing to impressive really just trying to add another certification to my name for my current job. Actually, that is really impressive! Haven't been in school for two years and having new meds plus a t who is gone and still going back to school... i'm really impress and so glad for you!

faith1983 · Feb 08, 2012, 04:48 PM

I cannot seem to add quote to my message.. sorry about that, it makes it unclear!

lostmyway21 · Feb 08, 2012, 04:54 PM

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Originally Posted by faith1983

I cannot seem to add quote to my message.. sorry about that, it makes it unclear!

No I understand. Thank you.

mcl6136 · Feb 08, 2012, 05:37 PM

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Originally Posted by CantExplain

My T is away.

But I have a somewhat different reaction to most of you here. Instead of longing and panic, I'm starting to wonder:

Did T ever really exist or was it all a dream?

But I have YET ANOTHER different reaction.....I think YAHOO! I can attain steady state .....and then be thrown off center again...later.

I think they call this approach/avoidance.

lostmyway21 · Feb 08, 2012, 06:58 PM

Bleh I send T email, telling him that my inner child pretty much wants to beg him not to leave next week. Ughhhh...how embarrassing. I will be hiding in my jacket all session tomorrow morning.

Feb 08, 2012, 07:07 PM

I totally begged T to not leave when she left!! I hope the time goes by REALLY fast for you and T gets back soon.

CantExplain · Feb 10, 2012, 03:42 PM

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Originally Posted by lostmyway21

I am actually crying on the train thinking about this now. Omg wth is wrong with me.

Why should anything be wrong with you?
Doesn't everyone cry when a loved one goes away?

lostmyway21 · Feb 10, 2012, 03:51 PM

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Originally Posted by CantExplain

Why should anything be wrong with you?
Doesn't everyone cry when a loved one goes away?

Your right, it is just totally foreign for me tbh.

FourRedheads · Feb 10, 2012, 05:24 PM

I feel for you. Last summer, my T was gone for three weeks. It was so hard, but I got through it. You will too. Keep posting here for support; I bet everyone here understands!

lostmyway21 · Feb 10, 2012, 05:50 PM

Bleh it's only 10 more days.

lostmyway21 · Feb 13, 2012, 06:03 PM

I asked T to email me something today to help me get through, because I was struggling and he did. He told me to remember the positive things that are coming up for me, because they will help me move forward. BUT then at the end he said, "You are a good person, with a great heart don't lose that."

What did he mean by don't lose that?

CantExplain · Feb 13, 2012, 09:16 PM

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Originally Posted by lostmyway21

I asked T to email me something today to help me get through, because I was struggling and he did. He told me to remember the positive things that are coming up for me, because they will help me move forward. BUT then at the end he said, "You are a good person, with a great heart don't lose that."

What did he mean by don't lose that?

Perhaps he simply meant "don't forget it."