[sweepy62]

hi, ok if u followed my post my t handed me an assignment to do with about 15 questions about the body and such ( kind of intrusive) anyway so i went to session today spoke about week events.

I handed her my assignment she looked it over and had me read outloud question and answer, i was in shock this never happened before, and after that we went over it again to see where i connected with them, it was hard reading my own answers outloud in session

felt like a school kid it was mentally exhausting, a friend mentioned to me that it might be because she wants me to be vulnerable and to step out of my comfort zone

my t told me there are alot more assignments to come so im freaking out next week we will continue baby steps into sensitive situations, so what do u think

[mazing]

It seems that she is trying to get you out of your comfort zone. i assume that you are uncomfortable talking about sensitive issues? Completely understandable but one of the aims of therapy is often to work through those issues so your therapist is probably trying to help you come to a point where you can work through them effectively by talking through them.

Take it one step at a time and keep your therapist in the loop. Therapists may push but should also know when to step back if needed. Tell her how you feel and stick with it. As hard as sessions can be it does make things better in time

[rainbow8]

Two weeks ago my session was similar to yours and I felt the same way! I had written a couple of paragraphs as though a Mom were talking to her daughter about "growing up", complete with many anatomy words. I posted about this already so I apologize if it's repetitious. I had originally wanted my T to give me that talk, but she said she wanted me to read out loud what I wrote instead!

I did it once, and she had me do it 2 more times! I was totally out of my comfort zone and was blushing, but it was one of the best and most productive sessions I've ever had.

I suggest telling your T how hard it is for you, but it will probably get easier after awhile. If not, don't torture yourself. Tell your T you aren't ready for it yet. But it's good to get out of your comfort zone in therapy.

[Chopin99]

Therapy involves a lot of "getting out of one's comfort zone". There is a delicate balance a T has to maintain between pushing too much and not pushing enough. If you feel uncomfortable, it would definitely help your T to let her know how you feel. However, it is good for growth to step outside your comfort zone, no matter how painful!

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by sweepy62

it was hard reading my own answers outloud in session

felt like a school kid it was mentally exhausting, a friend mentioned to me that it might be because she wants me to be vulnerable and to step out of my comfort zone

I have a different take on this.

When we write something, it comes out of the conscious mind, down the arm and onto the paper without ever triggering the subconscious.

It is only by saying things out loud that the subconscious gets activated.

Eg I can write something with total detachment and burst into tears when I read it aloud.

Ts like that, not because they enjoy watching us cry, but because it brings conscious and subconscious into alignment and that's what therapy is all about.

[WePow]

I agree with CantExplain. I think that your T wanted to experience your answers instead of just reading them.

[Sannah]

((((((((Sweepy))))))))), I agree, please talk to your T about how you feel when doing this.