To My T...

Dear T,

Thank you for all the wonderful sessions we had. I know our time was really short together, but you really made an influence on my life. I may not have agreed with you on everything, and sometimes you frustrated me (hey, it's the truth!), but you were still a wonderful T.

I'm going to miss the safety net that you gave me, even though I know it's still technically there. You were the one who saw me when I was in the darkest moments, and it was your advice that got me the support I have now. Thank you so much for all of this.

I'm sorry I don't have the money to see you any more. I know you would have accommodated this but at this point that would be unfair to you.

I know your sad to see me go too. I could tell that you were a T who genuinely cares. I know you are not taking it personally that I'm going to see other people, because you said you think it will give me better help, but I can see the worry in your eyes and the hope that I will email you. It was your idea after all.

Although I don't want to say "I hope I see you again" I will say thank you for seeing me at my worst. I'm surprisingly upset about this, even though I didn't think I would be, but I think it's because you were one of the only people to make me stop reciting things, and spilling facts, and you made me feel them instead. It might have been scary, and I might have hated you at the time, but right now I wish we had more time so we could go deeper. Right as I get my bravery, I have to go.

Thank you one last time for being so awesome, and f*** it, I hope I see you again. Although I will try hard not to need to

-Switch

Did you send this to your T?

hugs hugs hugs friend

No, I didn't. I just kinda wrote it here to get it out of my system. Today was my last session as I'm starting new treatment, and I'm sad to say good bye. He's keeping my file open, but I'm not going to be having regular scheduled sessions anymore. I'm not use to missing people, especially missing my T. and I have a slight hope he'll read it by chance.

Why don't you just mail it? The you avoid face to face and T will know how you felt or you could work through this with the new T. I do understand your pain dear and I hope you moving on is seen as a move forward. Be kind to yourself. The letter was beautifully written. :heartfelt:

I don't have a new T. I'm going into a program, with a bunch of new things... it's intimidating. I told him something similar face to face, and again I can go back at any time. I'm not a sappy person, and it would be really out of character for me to send something like this. Not that it's not genuine, but I'd be mad at myself and unnecessarily embarrassed. He knows how I feel, I told him I'd miss him and he knows that's a lot coming from me. I think he knows he did the best job he could for me.

That's a lovely letter, Switch.

I would be proud to get a letter like that.