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Okay, I wasn't going to start another thread, but I feel so "out of sorts" about the erotic transference article! I posted at the end of the thread but decided to start my own thread about my reactions. First, Velvet: I'm glad you posted the article; it is very interesting though triggering to me.
I sent the link to my T and told her I wanted to discuss it. I have a lot of those "hoarding" type feelings, and it's especially relevant because I just asked her questions about herself. Of course, I have had my pattern for my whole life so the information isn't new to me at all! It could be the way he put it that is upsetting. ![]() I don't like to think that my relationship to my T is only based on my transference for her. That is demeaning to me because I know my feelings for her are genuine. Yet I had the same feelings for 4 other Ts! ![]() I want to know that it's not black and white. It's not JUST erotic transference. I really care about my T as a person even if I don't know all about her. It's both. Can it be both? I have to discuss this with her because no matter what, the transference stuff is my main issue, more than the shame stuff. Hey, I think EMDR worked since I'm not thinking about it, but instead am concentrating on this article and what it means. ![]() I just wanted to get this out, not asking for agreement or disagreement. I think Can'tExplain, you said the article triggered you. Anyone else? |
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"So remember why someone goes into psychotherapy: to experience a sense of genuine recognition so as to overcome the lack that disturbs current social functioning. Once all the manipulation, game-playing, and dishonesty that characterize your interpersonal relationships are dissolved through the integrity and honesty of the therapeutic relationship, then you can enter into an honest life of true love for others."
You are emphasizing your feelings for T, but I see it in this quote as being about T's feelings for us, if you consider recognition to be feelings. Somehow T has convinced me I matter. Or maybe PC did! Or together you have. so now i'm standing here with my leg out like Angelina Jolie, ready to show everyone some true love. what exactly bothers you about the article? are you taking a phrase out of context? |
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I am sorry that you are upset, rainbow. This is a nightmare for me. I want to wake up and have all of this transference stuff disappear! |
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Correct.
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Mr Ambassador, alias Ancient Plax, alias Captain Therapy, alias Big Poppa, alias Secret Spy, etc. Add that to your tattoo, Baby! |
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hankster: The whole idea triggers me!
![]() ![]() ![]() squiggle: I'm sorry you feel that way. It's so hard!!! ![]() ![]() ![]() Can'tExplain: I'm sorry too. ![]() ![]() ![]() |
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Rainbow, I think that it can be both. I'm sure you are longing for a true, deep relationship and this drives you.
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There are people IRL who are capable of deep relationships. You must not be choosing them, though. I know I have talked to you about fear of intimacy before. I did this subconsciously. I hung out with people who were not capable of being intimate and then complained about how shallow they were! Then I realized that when I was around someone who was capable of being close I ran. I worked with myself so that now I can tolerate being close to others and I am enjoying deeper relationships.
Your T feels safe for you because she can't get too close. If she was IRL I'll bet you would have run away and fast.
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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![]() Rainbow - I'm sorry you're having such a hard time with this. I am too. I DON'T want it; but at the same time, am strangely drawn to it. So damn confusing.
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What a loss to spend that much time with someone, only to find out that she's a stranger. - Joel, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind |
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Sannah, I probably would have run away from someone like my T in the past. You're right that she's safe because she's not in my RL. Now I want to be close to others. I've found a couple of women who want that deep relationship with me, with all the sharing. It's hard for me to reciprocate, though I truly like to help others and listen to their challenges too. But I still have a huge need for it to be about me, which is what I get in therapy. I'm spoiled from all of my therapy! So I have to talk more about those needs with my T.
The main part bothering me now is wondering if my feelings for my T are sincere or just a "product of my issues." I just feel cheated somehow, and confused. I need to accept that the T-relationship is unique but it IS real. I'm more upset about my feelings toward her than hers toward me. That's weird!!! ![]() Beautiful.mess: thank you! Yes, it's confusing! ![]() |
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I feel depressed. I want my T to tell me not to pay attention to psychology articles and labels! She will probably say that, more or less, but I have to wait until Tuesday. I have to sit with my feelings but they don't want to sit. They want to run around and drive me nuts!!
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how closely are you reading these articles? I am taking each sentence and/or paragraph and trying to decipher the author's meaning, and its meaning for me, and how it relates to current T and our r/s right now. That makes it a LITTLE easier, a smaller problem, keeping it in the here and now. I posted at the end of the other E.T. thread. I don't know if that example would help you or not.
it does hurt a little to be left behind, but it's not the end of the world. why does it feel like the end of the world? I know the answer for me, what is the answer for you - ie not just or even necessarily R8, but whoever this resonates with (if anyone! I should change my name to threadkiller!) |
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hankster, I guess I'm lumping the whole transference phenomenon (I think I spelled that wrong!) into one package without leaving any room for variations. Your method sounds much better!
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I meant my T went on vacation and left me behind!
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Oh! I'm sorry your T went on vacation and left you behind. I've felt that way when my T went to Hawaii. I wanted so badly to sneak into her suitcase!
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Mr Ambassador, alias Ancient Plax, alias Captain Therapy, alias Big Poppa, alias Secret Spy, etc. Add that to your tattoo, Baby! |
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I agree. I can't explain this to myself, let alone anyone else .....
I'm more and more into authentic experience and going from there. |
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Quit watching so much TV and playing video games, dammitback!
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Yeah, I don't think they will. I need to understand what's going on at this level of explanation before - well, before the tiniest fart of a feeling will cut loose! Pardon the expression!
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Still, reading comprehension can be useful at times. ![]() |
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