T as life observer?

May I ask why you would like this? I am not criticizing - just curious. The thought never crossed my mind to want anyone, let alone a therapist, to follow me around and observe me and I am just wondering what info would be gathered that is different from who you tell her you are in the appointments. Is the idea that if the therapist had "the complete picture" she could help you more efficiently?

I saw a thing on Canadian television where they attach a special camera to people to automatically take a picture every 30 seconds as they go about their day. It helps people who have memory problems recreate their memory by watching their day play back on the computer then. So you could use that technology!

I guess my thinking was since I only see T every two weeks, its hard for me to give a good idea what's been going on. I feel like I am wasting time of my 50 minute session if I go on and on about the two weeks. Also, I'm really good at "forgetting" stuff or overlooking stuff that is important. Also, I think it would be really interesting to see how T saw me vs how I see me. Just a way of getting outside perspective I guess. I would want her to come back to the session and say why did you do this or what was going through your mind while you were doing that - really make me think about what I am doing.

I would want my T to watch me through a crystal ball (with sound!).
Then she could help with with my social interactions and salary negotiations.

That sounds similar to me. I go every two weeks too. I tell him very little about what events go on in my day to day life. I don't even think about keeping him up to date with events- trips, conflicts at work, routines where therapy influenced me, connections with friends, etcetera- I know there's no way to cover all that, so I don't try. T is extremely flexible with what we talk about and almost never follows up on events that happened previously. That used to bother me with previous therapists but I kind of got used to that being the way they do therapy. It's weird, but that's how it is. Occasionally I'm afraid I may give him too little concrete detail about what's happening in my life now, but he doesn't ask, so I let it go.

Well, they want us to internalize their voice, don't they? Maybe that's just a step toward internalizing it. I imagine what t would say if he knew what I was doing a lot of the time. It bothers me that I'm so obsessed with thinking about myself like that, but maybe it's what I need to do for a while.

Aagh, that sounds awful.

It's hard to imagine that what one tells one's t during appointments would be the same thing the t (or any other human being) would observe if they were there, since everyone has a different perspective on things. It seems like especially in therapy the point is to get someone else's perspective.

I wonder if this wanting T to follow one around is more a sign of where developmental issues got stuck or else failed?