[granite1]

to my T

pleas allow me my ignorance,because in this one moment of clarity,when it all seems to make sense, and all the thoughts connect.the horror show that plays in my head is just to much to watch

[Elli-Beth]

I've recently begun to put together my missing time and I've also been referring to it as a horror movie. I want to go back to not knowing so much... I'm not sure if this is what you mean, but if so, I can completely relate.

[Perna]

Originally Posted by granite1

that plays in my head

Get out of your head; share it! Horror shared by the light of day with others who care (T especially) is much less horrible.

[granite1]

thanks for reading and responding perna and elli thanks for reading and the hugs FRH,karrin,sconnieand roadie

[skysblue]

The thing is, Granite, is that you are not ignorant. Whether or not T encourages you to bring painful memories to light or not, they are still there within you ready to cause pain at any time.

My T tells me that the only way to overcome and learn to live with terrible memories is to look at them clearly and not stuff them away and try to hide them,

But going slowly is also advisable because you don't want to re-traumatize yourself. Slowly but surely, little by little, you can let the pieces out. When it gets to be too much for you, stop. And when you're feeling stronger, begin again.

good luck