[rebnsof]

Hi!

I just came here to say that I've been reading you all every day. Most of the times I don't post because someone has posted my opinion already or because I simply feel like I don't have nothing important to say, but I spend a lot of time here!

I have great moments here and I love therapy! My therapist is very nice to me and I am starting to trust him. The other day I walked in feeling guilty, ashamed, super anxious...
We talked about what was bothering me and something strange happened: He was talking to me and I don't know exactly what he was saying. I just know I was listening to everything and at the same time, I wasn't. But everything was calming, his voice tone, his words. And then, suddenly, I "woke up" and I realised he was doing this on purpose. I don't know how long it took. For me it was a long time but I bet it wasn't even for a minute! I don't know if he even noticed that I was spacing out. It was a very weird experience, but - don't ask me why! - healing. I felt warm.

Have you ever felt something like this? Share your experiences, I really wanna know.

Hugs everyone!!!

[Asiablue]

wow i'd love to experience that, i'm glad you felt is was healing. I have had times when i've zoned out a bit but that was thru anxiety rather than anything the therapist was doing.

[Nelliecat]

Yeah, definately had the zoning out thing and other times when I'm just plain not listening to her - I am very easily distracted when I don't want to hear something, then realise she's just said something quite important. I'd like to experience the healing feeling you talk about though.

[rebnsof]

Thing is, this wasn't just "distraction". I think I was listening, but just too immersed in his words, so much that I don't know what he said. I just know it was good, calming, peaceful, healing. After this experience, I began to trust him, to believe that I'm really safe there, not just intelectually... I FEEL safe... finally...

[unaluna]

I brought in an old-timey jazz cd. We each chose a track or 2 to listen to. I wanted to hear Barnacle Bill the Sailor - it's what Bluto used to sing to Olive Oyl in the Popeye cartoons, and boy did it take me back! It felt like the room was filled with smoke and electricity. He said it took him back to his childhood too and recounted a regular experience with his mother, sitting at her feet while she watched TV.

[KazzaX]

I haven't experienced nor heard of anything like that. Sounds bizarre, but cool at the same time. My therapist doesn't like me, and I don't like her, so we have some sort of unspoken agreement there, haha. Although I can predict exactly what is going to come out of her mouth each session because it was all covered in first year of university - general psych.

[FourRedheads]

Yes, I think I understand what you are saying.

Last week, I revealed some very painful things, and T began talking in a calm, soothing voice. I was spacing out and not focusing on the actual words, but more the sound of her voice. It felt like a healing balm washing over me. I remember a few phrases, but not much.

[rebnsof]

hankster, wow! I didn't know that we could listen to music at therapy. That seems really, really nice!

KazzaX, I'm sorry that you don't have a good relationship with your T... Mine is really unpredictabe, which is sometimes, scary!! But he's starting to know what triggers me, I guess. Have you considered finding another T?

FourRedheads, that's EXACTLY what I felt! Must be some kind of technique don't you think?