[Asiablue]

Two weeks ago i posted on here about feeling deeply depressed and felt therapy was making it worse. I also wrote about feeling disconnected to my T after a vacation break. In the space of 3 weeks i've gone from twisted with fear,regret utter despair to feeling absolutely NOTHING. No attachment to T, no feelings about anything. Not sad about the things that 3 weeks ago had me in floods of tears. I'm struggling to remember what exactly felt, i feel nothing about the past trauma in my life. The things that were terrifying me and twisting me in knots, i no longer feel anything about, i am neutral. W T F?

Either i am magically healed or something else is going on, can anyone shed any light on this, has it happened to anyone else?

[CantExplain]

Sometimes the "feeling glands" get tired and need time to recover.

[Asiablue]

it's like i've just switched off Can'texplain, it's so weird and it's freaking me out. Is it a sign i need to take a break from therapy perhaps?

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by Asiablue

it's like i've just switched off Can'texplain, it's so weird and it's freaking me out. Is it a sign i need to take a break from therapy perhaps?

I'd wait a bit before deciding on any action. Your feelings may come back in a matter of days.

Severe depression often presents as a complete lack of feeling. Be sure you keep in contact with your T, and if you are on mess be sure your doctor knows what is going on.

[Cotton ball]

I think it's a sign you need to FORCE yourself to continue. Only you can decide.??
I've found from my experience that when I go "numb" it's when I most need help. I think it's the minds way up shutting down the pain for self preservation. Sometimes we can only take so much at one time.

[Asiablue]

Originally Posted by farmergirl

Severe depression often presents as a complete lack of feeling. Be sure you keep in contact with your T, and if you are on mess be sure your doctor knows what is going on.

(I've found from my experience that when I go "numb" it's when I most need help. I think it's the minds way up shutting down the pain for self preservation. Sometimes we can only take so much at one time.)

I've gone numb before where i know i'm shutting down and that there's a lot going on underneath it. But this is like nothing i've ever felt before, it's a complete absence of any negative feeling, i feel.... ok. Like someone just came and took all the painful memories and feelings away. After over 30 years of feeling awful it's disconcerting.

Originally Posted by Asiablue

i am on meds... i've recently stopped taking them because of the numb feeling.

All the more reason you need to contact your pdoc. It sounds like maybe this has gotten worse off the mess? Not sure of the timeliness. My T is very firm about me always contacting my pdoc if something seems off with my meds.

[Asiablue]

you could be right farmergirl. maybe i shouldn't have stopped them....

[Cotton ball]

(((Asiablue))) It could be a physical reaction from the meds? I would definately follow up with your Therapist.

This is "normal". I have been through the exactly same thing many, many times. I've even completely forgot my reason for being in therapy and have gone as far as not even recognising the room. Feels like its the first time I've been there. Its juit a coping mechanism. Doesn't need medication or visits to hospital just needs to be talked about.

[elliemay]

The meds might be contributory, or not. Usually though when there a sudden change in anything, it merits attention rather than pulling away from it.

It's really hard for an emotion train to come to a full stop so quickly. It's usually because it's hit something immovable.

I think earthmamma is on to something as well. Grief is one emotion that can, for me, come to a full stop without any warning. In fact, I think grief may play out like that for a lot of folks, just not sure.

If you have someone to talk to about what's happening - your pdoc, therapist (if you trust them) etc... I would definitely try to.

[WikidPissah]

It could very well be a withdrawal symptom from coming off the meds too quickly. You really should be in contact with T and PDOC as well.

[mixedup_emotions]

The feelings usually are still there, just buried/repressed. I have had this happen quite often when I feel such overwhelming feelings...and then they're gone....Sometimes our brains don't allow our bodies to feel what it needs to feel.

[BonnieJean]

Originally Posted by mixedup_emotions

The feelings usually are still there, just buried/repressed. I have had this happen quite often when I feel such overwhelming feelings...and then they're gone....Sometimes our brains don't allow our bodies to feel what it needs to feel.

the exact thing happens to me too

[Asiablue]

Originally Posted by elliemay

The meds might be contributory, or not. Usually though when there a sudden change in anything, it merits attention rather than pulling away from it.

It's really hard for an emotion train to come to a full stop so quickly. It's usually because it's hit something immovable.

I think earthmamma is on to something as well. Grief is one emotion that can, for me, come to a full stop without any warning. In fact, I think grief may play out like that for a lot of folks, just not sure.

If you have someone to talk to about what's happening - your pdoc, therapist (if you trust them) etc... I would definitely try to.

Do you mean that grief can come to a full stop because all of a sudden you're just over it?

[Asiablue]

Thanks everyone for your replies. I'm glad others can identify with this, i've never had this happen before.

[elliemay]

Originally Posted by Asiablue

Do you mean that grief can come to a full stop because all of a sudden you're just over it?

No. grief, IMO, is one of the oddest emotions. It can morph into other emotions, even seemingly disappear. It'll come back though. It always does.

Grief, I think is impossible to "process". It has to run its course.

[Asiablue]

Originally Posted by elliemay

No. grief, IMO, is one of the oddest emotions. It can morph into other emotions, even seemingly disappear. It'll come back though. It always does.

Grief, I think is impossible to "process". It has to run its course.

ok thanks. Would love to know where it "went"in the 1st place lol like do our feelings take a vacation from us?

[KazzaX]

Yes I felt nothing for most of my life up until about 3 years ago. I would give ANYTHING to go back to that. Anything.