[smarinb]

Ok, so I've been going to psychotherapy for the last 6 months at university and since it is only available for a limited amount of time my therapist suggested that I went into group therapy which is offered for an unlimited amount of time. I said yes at the beginning because I really didn't want to quit therapy as it has been helping me so much, but right after i said yes i sent her an email (in my university everything is connected through the university email service, eg: confirm appointments etc.) saying if we could meet again the next week. She thought it was a good idea and then i said i was finally ready but i again messaged her, anyways we had like three more sessions until i was ready to go into group therapy and she was very understanding. I went to my first group therapy session yesterday and it wasn't as bad as i thought, people were understanding and stuff but i still felt like i was kind of needing something else, so i left the room with everyone else but then i came back and asked her if she would be available to talk to me one on one anytime i needed it, because to be honest i'm finding it really hard to let go of it. She said that she didn't encourage it because then i wouldn't talk in the group but if there was something that really worried me and i didn't want to talk in the group about it we could have the occasional one-off. After that i felt a bit better and i hugged her. So i left but when i left something really weird happened i had been feeling more or less okay until then and i started feeling really depressed again, just like when i started therapy i felt like i was going back a lot, i felt lonely, hopeless, i have really been thinking that life is not really worth it, don't see much point in doing anything and i see my life as boring and dull. After that i've been feeling angry and it is really weird, i don't know why i am feeling anger towards my therapist or the group, or the whole situation but i feel angry and i feel like not coming back to the group, i don't even know why i just feel abandoned for some reason. I feel like I want my attention, which makes me feel selfish even though I am not a selfish person at all. My therapist mentioned that if i came into the group i would have to be committed to it, and that she didn't like people coming and going because it would affect the group. She is a very sweet person and understanding has always made me feel comfortable and non-judgmental. My question is do you think my therapist is mad at me because I've been so undecisive? like could she be mad at me or think im needy for first saying yes about coming into the group and then going back and forth on it, and asking her if we could ever meet up for one on one therapy? Do you think she will be mad at me if i don't go to the next session, in a concerned way or do you think she'll be fed up and just give up on me? Do you think she will even care if i don't show up?

[Travelinglady]

Did you ask this question somewhere else? I seem to remember answering it....

[CantExplain]

I think she wants you to go and will be disappointed if you don't.