The straw that broke the camels back*TW for hopelessness*

today has been the day that broke the camels back. we were already feeling angry,unsafe and vulnerable and now we just received an email from our soon to be ex-counselor telling us she doesnt think it is going to work out between us. that once every 2 weeks and limited email support isnt enough and we need more than she can give. at least she gave us fair warning ,we will give her that much. but we have finally come to realize we are hopeless,unhelpable and a complete waste of everything. there is no place left to go now. there is nobody else anywhere around that can or will see us with our complex issues. its probably time to just give up. no,we arent sui*al. just finally accepting we arent wanted. and its ok. we are not ever going to trust anyone again-not ever. nothing is worth this much pain. nothing. we just cant do this anymore. we are so very sorry

oh trin you are worth so much more then you think.every part of you deserves the help you need.is this t going to help you find someone who is more equipped to help

thank you granite but we finally accept we are worthless. and no,shes not going to help us find anyone. its ok. thank you for caring granite ♥

You're not unhelpable. You just need more help than your current counsellor can give.

we have been through 2 counselors in less than 6 months-what does that say about us? what is so awful about us? *cries*

Therapists are not trained in DID and all that that entails, sadly. We had been through the fire on finding T's. And the one "expert" in the entire area was not taking on new clients. I had spent months searching and searching to find someone that'd be willing. It was such a painful experience, especially when there were a few that would see us a few sessions then say that they couldn't meet our needs and to look elsewhere, but not have referrals. It still hurts when I think about it. It took me quite a while to find someone who was patient enough to stick with us and learn how to help us. I do hope you find that someone too. This is so not about you all, this is about the lack of training they have. You are SO WORTH IT!

((TrinityDancer))

I'm sorry you are feeling so sad and helpless.
Finding the right therapist can be difficult.

I don't think you are awful.

It's like finding a job, or a house, or a partner: you just have to keep looking.

Two counsellors in six months is fine. You gave them a fair chance but they were not right for you. On to the next one!

I often felt discouraged when I was looking for a job. I hate the repeated rejection. But I had no option except to keep looking. I found a job in the end.

Good luck with your search!

the sad thing is both of them were trained in helping those of us with DID.the first one we were with for almost 7 years and she decided out of nowhere she was done with us,and now this. it has not even fully sunk in yet,this realization. add in no insurance and no extra finances and nothing looks hopeful. thank you for your kind words♥

oh, trinity, I am sorry sorry. but please, keep believing you have worth and you are worth helping - because you are worth it!! these 2 may not have been able to do or be what you needed, but that doesn't mean that there is no one at all out there who couldn't be able and willing ...... but I do understand how it is to feel like there is no one who could or would, and I'm sorry for the pain you have.

I think it might say more about the counselors than you actually.

just really cant believe it so numb and in shock right now

I'm so sorry. I don't know what to say.

I'm sorry Trinity. I know I would feel lost if I were in your situation.

My heart goes out to you. My T had to go through over 20 different Ts before he found the one who could/would help him out. There is a T who can help you. You are precious and a unique child of the universe. You deserve peace and healing.

This sounds like what we went thru. I remember how painful it os and i an sorry it hurts so bad. We searched thru 8 counselors in a few months after T of 7 yrs dumped us w/ no warning. Finally the 9th time worked and i found an incredible DID counselor. Please dont give up. I know its hard. Weve been where youre at. But please dont give up.

So sorry this has happened to you. Please don't give up, you deserve to have whatever help it is you are needing. I believe in my very core that there is a T to match each and everyone us. I hope you keep trying to find your match. You are a human being therefore you have inherent value and worth. Take care.

Please don't give up. Your t just told you that she isn't equip to handle your type. You need to find a t that uses the techniques to "recovery memories" which would be a t that uses psychotheapy techniques and CBT.

Keep searching and you will find someone who can deal with the help that you need.

we just now were able to come back on here and finding so many caring and encouraging replies really touched us very much. we cant tell you what that means to us. we want to thank each of you from the bottom of our heart. thank you thank you for telling us we arent worthless♥♥♥

Don't give up, TD. In the few short weeks I've known you on here I've come to like you a lot - you are anything but worthless. You will find somebody who can help you. In the meantime we're here for you.

she wants us to come next thurs.-dont think were going

why don't you want to go?

Trin, you should go...seriously. Maybe she can help you find the right T. You are not worthless, you are of great value!

we dont want to go because we are so defeated-she asked us to come to return a book she lent us and "tie up loose ends"-we dont want to. why should we? dismissing us by email is cowardly anyway

i hope you go because maybe she will feel some of the awfulness of what she's doing. Maybe it will inspire her to do something about it someday.

You must go TD! What are you afraid of?