I've been mostly away from PC for the last five days. I noticed that I was posting on a BUNCH o' threads trying to figure out what has been going on for people in the last few days. So, to save everyone wading through a kajillion posts by ME, does anyone just feel like posting updates about what's going on with them here?

I'll start: I was away on vacation, but was still stressed, partly about work and partly about weird dynamics among my friends. I rode my horse for many many hours and ran for miles, and walked more miles with my friends and their dogs. The sheer physical fatigue was helpful in tamping down the anxiety and stress. I avoided calling my T despite thinking about him incessantly. I sent many texts to my friends who were not with me, however, and probably annoyed the beejesus out of them.

Now you all: whatcha guys been going? The couch thread helps a little, but not everyone posts there.

[unaluna]

basically, you and lola left, and the rest of us are now falling to pieces, and whoever isn't, is trying to shore up who is, and even those who are falling apart are trying to help the others, cos that's the way we roll...

my big news is, I got an invite to my cousin's son's bridal shower (YKWIM) just found out my mother is co-hosting it at her condo, so now how is it gonna look if I don't show? It's her sister's grandson, out of all the cousins, it doesn't get much closer than this, I even changed his diaper. he made it possible for me to see the Rolling Stones a 2nd time. But everybody - esp the 3 witches - is gonna say, oh you gained weight, I thought you were dieting. like it's the only thing in the world they know or care about me. and then I will have to strangle them with my bare hands.

so that's my report - either I am conspicuous by my absence, which is not fair to the bride, or I will be conspicuous by my presence? I am definitely too self-centered! I think go, be gracious, wear beige and fade into the background as much as possible, and leave as early as possible.

[lostmyway21]

Hmm I had a bit of a breakdown this weekend, so recovering from that. Other than that trying to get these darn meds adjusted. I think I'm finally making a little bit of progress as far as my abandonment issues with T, I haven't asked if he was going to abandon me in like a week. LOL

Just going to work and school...TRYING to keep my mind busy.

[likelife]

I'm sick on the couch with a bad cold. I decided to stay home from work, and am regretting it now because I don't feel that bad.

[SpiritRunner]

I somehow got out of the notion of posting much for a few days, too ..... I don't know what it was exactly, but I felt like avoiding the internet/computer and just being out in the sunshine more, reading, running, or playing with my kids, being mindful and present in my everyday life.
I spent time wondering if I needed to call to check in with my old T (T2) anymore or not .... sort of wanting to talk to her, but yet not wanting to either. Maybe the time for that is passing ...... things are a struggle at times and yet I seem to get through those times in a healthier way than before. Like a storm that passes in the night and then the morning is clear .....

[stopdog]

Sounds like a good vacation. I am the same as usual.

[nannypat]

Still dealing with a lot of issues that take time to work out like unemployment and lack of much money, my disability being reevaluate by the city Ins. Company. I have a work related disability. It is my son who helps me with the money for the house we share, Stress is feeling overwhelming and afraid my treatment is in danger. On the Good side, my family is pretty healthy, and my T has been so supportive I couldn't ask for me. He is keeping me glued together.

Hey hankster, do you need pocket riders for the shower? I'm in.

[stopdog]

Where would you put a pocket rider in the shower?
Oh you straight girls.

[unaluna]

Originally Posted by My kids are cool

Hey hankster, do you need pocket riders for the shower? I'm in.

I want for realsies! I'm goin to wherever granite's mom is, and in return, I want granite to come with me! but just in case that plan doesn't pan out, and I DO actually go, can we go on horseback? I've been watching so much Rifleman, I think I can ride! and hey, i've taken a pocket ride (or two) on the wild side in my day!
ETA: I said I would go back to the FOO when I knew what to say. It came to me today that what I would say is, "Shut up. I'm 60 yrs old. Don't talk to me like that. Change the subject. How 'bout them Tigers?" Now I understand why T encouraged me to follow sports - it's the universal language of non-involvement.

[Mike_J]

I got back from a trip to Vegas, went to a convention for work, was busy but didn’t let myself get overwhelmed. Of course my flight home got all messed up, ended up getting home a day late.

Other than that I’m starting to stress a bit about my therapist, I haven’t seen her in almost 3 weeks, she is out of the office for an unknown amount of time due to some surgery (not sure exactly what).

But my SI is still under control, though my marriage is falling apart.

That is a quick update of my life

[critterlady]

My mother died. The week was a whirlwind of feeding relatives, figuring out how to get them where they wanted to go, and taking care of my father. Now I'm back home by myself and it's really hitting me.

Originally Posted by hankster

I want for realsies! I'm goin to wherever granite's mom is, and in return, I want granite to come with me! but just in case that plan doesn't pan out, and I DO actually go, can we go on horseback? I've been watching so much Rifleman, I think I can ride! and hey, i've taken a pocket ride (or two) on the wild side in my day!

Horseback would be cool with me! And sometimes switching around with other people on here would be great too. I remember once, pbutton offered on here to switch therapy sessions with me, but then she totally backed out. Something to do with her T having a cuter butt than mine. hahahaha.

we went to our sesion with our counselor after she sent us the dismissal email and then another asking us to come in anyway and it turned out to have been a really good thing. she apologized for many things not the least of which was why she had sent the email to begin with which was her feeling inadequate and helpless which was no excuse and so we worked things out and we are still seeing her. hope your vacation is wonderful!♥♥♥

[granite1]

the mother is still a jerk,the T is still waiting,and i'm still messed up so i guess all is well

[rainbow8]

I went out-of-town to visit my daughter and family for 2 weeks. It was good and bad which is the way it usually is--love those grandkids, though!

Now I'm in a state of misery because my T is in Europe for 2 weeks and I am experiencing a myriad of emotions, mostly jealousy and anxiety. On the plus side, I feel like my relationship with her is the best it's ever been, which is amazingly wonderful!

[pbutton]

I am fighting myself yet again. I am simultaneously trying to force myself to reach out to T and forcing myself to NOT email T.

So, yeah. Same old stupid nonsense in my head. It's like a tornado in here. No wonder I occasionally get blown outside of my own head & become a passive observer.

I had my first session back after a couple moths break with T1 on Thursday. I was so angry with my husband it was all I could talk about so it got us past the awkwardness but we didn't talk about any goals or anything that we said we would start out talking about....

So I guess I'm back into it for the long run.

[Nelliecat]

Well I had a week's holiday with some of H's family and that was a challenge but I managed ok. Didn't really miss T that much but now it's back to normal. That push/pull of therapy, missing her, not missing her Oh well, so it goes on.

I have been producing a lot of watercolour paintings with an aim to sell them which is a scary prospect but I think I can do it

Other than that, normal family stuff, school runs, kids clubs, arguing kids blah blah blah.

[WikidPissah]

hated T...changed my mind and tried to let him in...had a sex dream about him...now I hate him again

[FourRedheads]

Hi MKAC. I've missed you around these parts. Your vacation sounds kinda nice. The running part does, anyway.
I was happy to read you are running again. Think you'll stick with it?

I seem to have lost my pposting voice again. I'm here and reading in the shadows. Talking is too scary right now. I admitted past si to T last week and now I'm struggling with wanting to hurt myself again. I hurt my legs running & can't use that as a coping skill for now. So I'm floundering a bit.

Originally Posted by FourRedheads

Hi MKAC. I've missed you around these parts. Your vacation sounds kinda nice. The running part does, anyway.
I was happy to read you are running again. Think you'll stick with it?

I seem to have lost my pposting voice again. I'm here and reading in the shadows. Talking is too scary right now. I admitted past si to T last week and now I'm struggling with wanting to hurt myself again. I hurt my legs running & can't use that as a coping skill for now. So I'm floundering a bit.

I think I will stick with it. I stopped running outside after my dad died, but kept exercising quite a bit inside on the exercise bike and the elliptical until my father in law died. My exercise has been more sporadic since then, but I'm still exercising at least three or four times a week.

Sorry you got hurt running. Can you switch to an exercise bike?

[Chopin99]

I haven't posted much because I've been really busy. Out of town for work some last week, busy the weekend, busy so far this week, had a good session today. I'm in a good frame of mind right now.

A vacation sounds good right now! Wish I could have one!!

[learning1]

I haven't been posting on here much. I've been struggling over whether to go back to previous-challenging-t or t-previous-to-challenging-t or neither and live irl. I'm keeping reasonably busy but depression still comes in off and on.